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你太猖狂

2011-03-08T16:49:00.000-08:00

大家好，现在很早因为耳朵还可以听到小鸟支支叫的声音
呼吸着的空气真新鲜，但该死的是我入睡不足2个小时就被奇怪的梦弄醒
现在开着音乐听着HEBE的你太猖狂，正是我此刻的心情啊
真的发现我是一个不尽责任的博客，
竟然可以那么敷衍这曾经让我温暖的地方，
我真的不是故意这样忍心把这里搞得那么冷空的
只是残忍的日子过得如此的无聊，似乎没有什么特别好述说的
我变了，真的不感性了
现在想的脑汁快出来了才想起最近发生的事情
我在努力冲刺为了我即将来临的21岁生日，我不懂该怎么庆祝
好像也没什么特别，不就是老了？
回想我刚过来这里生活还是19岁的事
现在一眨眼就是二十还加一岁的事了，岁月真残忍！
２１真的是成人了，真的要好好检讨自己往后的路怎么走。。。
再这样无言也不是办法啊！
对，我现在正是在词穷。　囧囧囧囧囧囧囧
真的很想给自己扫两巴
因为真的悲惨到严重　：（
算了，你们不要再来看我算了！！！！！！
：（

字字有意

2010-11-21T14:37:00.000-08:00

该死的夜晚我睡不着觉
看着一些从前的帖子细细的回忆脑海里的记忆
悲欢喜乐五味杂陈感叹的是时间的残忍
无法回到过去更不能预测未来
坦然面对从前勇敢接受过后
现在，问题不是做不做得到
是知道现在的我做的更好

真的以这个为荣

只是觉得人长大了就会像大人一样
假装坚强假装什么事都一定有办法解决假装不被人担心
小时候失败受伤会哭
现在知道办法不是哭是哭不是办法
好奇探险面对未知路的刺激这就是做人人活着的目的？
还是一早规划然后按部就班未来是做人的应有的责任？
你喜欢操控选择还是安排接受？
你愿意冒险体验还是稳定实在?
那就好好的问自己什么是你呼吸的原因

你准备好了吗？
要认真的告诉自己为什么要什么样的生活吗？

我爸在我上机前跟我说了这句哲理

人，
要懂得知足，不容易满足

如果你觉得矛盾，证明你还未体验当中意义

我知道不该让这里变成那么冷清无奈无奈
原谅我的自私不是不愿分享
而是，
真的很想写一个很有内涵的文章

点滴

2010-11-13T20:32:00.001-08:00

快结蜘蛛网了这里好久好久真的好久没有写东西了啊
好吧说说最近生活点滴
最近都还蛮开心的因为10月尾回去自己老家2个星期
发现原来放下一切烦恼然后回一回家那么宁静。
没有太多精彩的火花就单纯的陪陪家人跟朋友叙叙旧
吃到咪为我准备的每一餐都好珍贵好好吃
跟爸一起喝喝小酒聊聊天都觉得字字都是人生哲学
跟弟妹聊功课娱乐都有聊不完的话题发现原来弟妹们其实很想我这个在外打拼的姐
人就算外面过的多有多姿多彩还是知道最重要的是家
起码我知道所以我会让自己一旦有时间就会回去



我弟好乖好听话

妹也亭亭玉立

来到海边拍照是一定要的

好巧，回去的第二天有个小学同学打电话通知我说明天举办小学同学聚会
真是太巧啦这次回去还可以跟几乎失去联络的同学见面
跟家人吃过饭后就赶去 UPPERSTAR CAFE ，看到一大桌围满了以前很熟悉的脸孔
因为有些同学依然还有跟我保持联络的..
喝完茶我们也有继续到酒吧喝喝酒，这是一定要得啦！哈哈

回来了几天，她应该很想我。哈哈
所以也忍不住买了机票过来~这几天都一起出去喝茶喝酒逛街吃吃吃
说真的真的习惯了有她在的日子（听起来好像同性恋哦哦哦哦）她会告诉我，你可以不要恶心吗？
我太久没打部落格现在词穷的很严重
那就这样吧

待续

2010-09-29T17:47:00.000-07:00

我又再一次的隔了好久好久
上来这里写文章
其实我没有很忙
最近我很得过且过或是说放了一个月的假
虽然现在我不愁吃不愁穿
但日子久了总觉得自己很浪费时间

但唯一我觉得值得的是我在很短的一个月时间里面让自己成长了
是我来KL快一年里的10倍
看到了人生的起伏人类的险恶生活的现实和总总让我足以让我苦笑原来这就是所谓的人生
不懂为什么现在的手一直在颤抖心在抽动
很多难以启齿的话我还是难以开口

我想我现在不是时候写文章

就这样停笔吧，

待续

很多你不知道的事

2010-09-17T00:59:00.000-07:00

今天真的很有MOOD写 BLOG
应该这么说，我是慢慢累积就像一个盒子装满了
才找一个适合的地方埋起来
我现在坐在客厅一个人听着一首我们很喜欢的歌
慢慢回想这些日子以来总总的一切
过了快4个月的时间
我足足让自己沉溺 ,还是说我是沉迷在这种时而开心时而低落的情绪里
有人跟我说过人很喜欢让自己处于很伤心的空间里
因为只有这样才会得到更多的安慰关心或是抒发
日子久了这种心态会越来越依赖或是说抽离不开
我深信我自己也得了这个病
所以我很失常的情绪一直起起伏伏
其实很想说一句~HEY！真的够了哦
我不是切斯蒂里只是开始释放了自己

是因为我认识了一个女生 MISS Ｔ　（我不公开她因为她很低调）
她在我很迷失的时候说了一些让我清醒的话
我不遗憾了
我打电话给老爸妈咪我告诉他们我想你们我爱你们
我现在到底是住在那个地方做工怎么样
我坦白的告诉他们我现在暂时搁下我的梦想
我也不怕告诉其他人我现在是跟着ＭＩＳＳ　Ｔ　一起当驻唱歌手
我喜欢唱歌　我喜欢舞台　这是很多人都不知道的　
但老爸　妈咪　从小就知道的
所以他们只告诉我一句话　宝贝女儿　只要你过得好过得开心　我们都相信你会好好爱自己
这句话　真的就很足够了　
我真的觉得身心都很轻松自在了　不再沉重　不再隐瞒
很努力的　改变我的生活
因为我答应了　我会成长　　我会过的更好　
我要的是未来　我要的是安定
　不是一直在海上漂流

至于爱情　我不再贪心苛求会有些什么回报
我承认　我的心里一直到现在还没让谁来替代他
我还是那么的没有用的让他一切霸占了我心
不要怪我　因为爱是会让人变得那么无可救药
我只想看到他快乐　不想看到他流泪
不想自己不但没有减轻他的负担　而是让他负担更重
就算是到头来一场空又怎样？
为什么担心一定要有什么回报？

我们努力吧
好吗？

　谁说爱是一定要拥有？

这首是我最近喜欢的歌

蝴蝶擦几次眼睛
再学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星
但几颗会落地
我飞行
但你坠落之际
很靠近
爱听见呼吸
对不起
我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨
碎落满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
还悬在你看不见那高空里
我的事
你不知道的事

蝴蝶擦几次眼睛
再学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星
但几颗会落地
我飞行
但你坠落之际
很靠近
爱听见呼吸
对不起
我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨
碎落满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
还悬在你看不见那高空里
我的事
你不知道的事

我飞行
但你坠落之际

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨
碎落满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
还悬在你看不见那高空里
我的事
你不知道的事

又病了

2010-08-28T02:16:00.000-07:00

我病了又病
痊愈了又继续生病
很辛苦
却又要硬着头皮工作

最近心灵身体都累坏了
但想一想
多几天我就要解脱了
应该开心的吧

发现了很搞笑的事
两个人暧昧了很久，被发现了假装没事打死不忍
早就在你们的眼神看到了什么蛛丝马迹
越是否认越是矛盾
我没瞎我没脑残好吗
我看着你你不敢正视我
我跟你说话你马虎回答我
你在心虚什么
早就分手了
看起来是朋友你紧张什么
我不会假装很甜美可人
我更不会友情满天下为荣
所以我跟你一点都不同

所以我不认同你

我寂寞寂寞就好

2010-08-26T10:40:00.000-07:00

你快乐吗？
很简单的问题，却思考了很久都回答不了这个问题
我得到了一些却同时失去了很多
上天是很公平的它给你的你也必须付出些什么
你以为真的那么多的好运那么多的免费午餐吗？
不劳而获是那些爱做白日梦的人每天的期待
如果世界上那么多如果假如
这个世界会真的很和平完美
有时，很想让自己沉淀下来
停一停下脚步放慢所有节奏
看看世界还有多少还没看到的画面
深怕自己走的太快太冲忙错过了很多美丽的事物

对了，都还没提起过一个现在跟我息息相关的一个人
他

不是我的新男友
他是一个我每天是每一天的24 小时都会相处的一个人
我们是一起工作的同事
更是放工后的好朋友
又或是相依为命的室友
我们的关系很像亲人不是情人
哈哈
对他，我只有种觉得感激感动也感恩的心情
来了KL那么久，从未真正遇到一个很知心的朋友
他算是唯一那个吧？
我知道你看到我在写你
不要偷笑！
不准暗爽我跟你讲！！！
无论如何，我不会忘了
那晚我崩溃回到家你在旁边一直骂那些把我弄哭得人
默默安静的安慰我，拿水给我喝
虽然我知道他不善于讲什么安慰的话来哄我
就只能要我快点去睡觉，把我的那晚一直连续响不停的电话关机
我很内疚我为了某些原因离开宿舍把你丢下一个人
请原谅我我只想日后我们的生活环境可以改变
我也不能保证一定会很好
但是起码是比较好
其实，我现在心里更怕
你会丢下我回去，不再回来

我真的很不舍
我只是
不承认

有一首歌
是他最近每天都在听得
我也开始爱上了

寂寞寂寞就好
Hebe@田馥甄

还是原来那个我不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么爱错就爱错
早点认错早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么什么都没有
早点看破才看的见以后

我寂寞寂寞就好这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的我总会把你戒掉

歌词是在说我们吗？还是每个人？？

没标题

2010-07-25T11:11:00.000-07:00

开了自己的BLOG几次，很想按登入然后更新
但每次都打消这个念头
原因是我真的没时间思考然后写出一篇内心的文章
很讨厌自己现在那么沉默
我很忙很累一点属于自己的时间也没有
麻木的工作为了生活牺牲自己剩余的休息时间
两份工作一个未来一个现在
我热爱我的行业我尊重自己的专业
一个人离乡背井来打拚就是为了以后能成功
但是我却发现梦想跟现实每次都打对立战
我很坚持自己当初的念头却为了生存暂时割舍
很矛盾很懊恼
但却只是一直要紧牙根忍耐下去

我跟他的一切表面都是慢慢谈忘
慢慢消失
回忆还在却没有待续
也许我真的成功让自己跟过去道别了
答应了他这个月的生日会陪他过因为是我们的承诺
3 年的生日都是形影不离的在他身边陪伴着
在我还没离开还靠近他的领域前我会实践我的承诺
在那过后，我们的距离会更远
再不是要见面就见面的距离
对，为了他我生活在这个领域
是，为了他我离开这个地区

搬家
是多么可怕的事，我忘了几次
我只是想让自己去找自己，再也没有你的自己
别担心，我没有伤心
这个选择是对的。

还有15 天，你的生日
礼物很特别，很有意义
希望你会珍惜我的心意

==================================================

谈谈我的最近
休息了一个星期
去了云顶，出去疯狂逛街，吃东西
很开心，很幸运我遇见了你们

云顶
没有很多照片

一直吃
吃肥了
没关系
很过瘾
现在地狱减肥
= =

下个月要面对更多挑战！！

加油！YOANNE

很好

2010-07-21T10:31:00.000-07:00

现在的我很好

别担心

The time to heal everything.完

2010-07-18T10:22:00.000-07:00

亲爱的博客，还是来看我博客的人

我想快被着无聊的死城闷死了
对不起，我说过给我时间来愈合
就这样我荒废了这里1个月
没有发言，没有埋怨，更加没有COMPLAIN
很高兴自己学会了一个道理，
其实有些痛是可以收在心里，
不需要挂在脸上，嘴上还是身上
伤口还在，疤痕还在
但自己可以选择怎么修饰那道每个人都会有的伤痕
有些人需要很长时间有些人只是那瞬间
不是人很善变，只是在于你怎么改变
也许吧
你又可能觉得我其实只是假装我很坚强
我不坚强但我能逞强
相信我很努力不让自己去勉强
那段不是自己最后一段的爱情

我讨厌EMO
其实我很开朗，我很乐观
我是那种今晚哭完
明早就又是一条好汉的人
现在却变得如此爱转牛角尖 NEGATIVE
不是我的TONE
这句话
COME ON,TAKE IT EASY.
每天上班都跟我同事胡闹说的一句话。
没事，只是小事。

最后
随便UPLOAD相片



GSIX

THE CURVE,SING K

AND OLD MATE GATHERING @SANTUARY

@santuary with the babe's

我最近去了很多地方，吃了很多美食，看了好几部电影，唱了几次K~
认识了很多不同阶层的人

是开心的吗?
最起码，我很充实
工作量也多了，钱也要多赚了
日子好过了，人也活得更有意思了

最后
想说
我们不是故事结束了也不是什么很无法接受的事实
却是另外一个故事的开始
好多好多人
很奇怪为什么我们好好的突然分手
很错愕我们曾经那么开心现在却看不出心情
不要问分手的理由，不想说最后的感受
爱不一定要拥有，拥有不代表相爱
我们很有缘，但无份在一起走到最后
不会不想再去追问谁对谁错
因为我们在一起是个错，我们分开始对的
（一直告诉自己是这样的）
实在太了解对方，所以知道不适合

这份承诺
no lies,just love
会放在心的某一个角落
也许别人无法代替，因为脑袋无法删除100% 的记忆
我会很珍惜我们一起过的回忆

谢谢我们爱过彼此
所以更茁壮了

-完-

HEART BROKEN

2010-06-14T09:12:00.000-07:00

忘了多久，
没有真正的笑
没有真正的谁
没有真正的吃
没有真正的做我自己

对，因为我失恋了
这次真的跟那个曾经那么爱那么爱的人
画上句点了。
没有挽回没有留下没有说什么
只是留下痛苦的面对失去
失去的是以后不能相爱，留下的是那么多回忆
是多么的痛
你听见吗
你看见吗
你感觉吗
你明白吗

我还是那么无助
我不说不想不提不要
说出原来真的很痛苦
我不敢说太多因为
我知道哪些关心我的爱我的人
一定在某一个角落偷偷看我写这篇文章
但请原谅我，我找不到抒发的地方
最后还是回到这个最后依靠的地方
我的BLOG 是一个死城
不再精彩不再感性没有灵魂只有冷漠的字眼
你还会再来看我吗
最后真的只是剩下我一个人吗？
我不知道

我知道现在生活很堕落
我在逃避很多很多人
那些我爱的人原谅我好吗？
给我过这段一碰就会碎的日子
我真的会好的。

小姐你有病

2010-05-03T09:43:00.000-07:00

紧握着双手温暖的胸口
是你让我一直拥有不曾想过失去后
会是怎样的感受
也许过度依赖这幸福的生活
我知道失去后会不知所措
看时间一分一秒的过
早已没发现快走入两个年头
这700 多天虽然不算什么
但也不是这么容易走过
突然很多话想说
但怎么也说不出口
心里的不舒服很想抒发却无所适从
我对他的爱不是阿猪阿狗能够懂
但却有人试着从中挑拨
试探着我们是否脆弱

我真的很不懂那些有事没事来闹的人
脑神经是哪里出了问题
来个信息说，我知道你有女朋友了，但是我还是要爱你，让我爱你
白目
我男友在我旁边然后手机我每天都可以看，你那些信息难道他会怎么样鸟你
我看了顶多哈哈两声
你的心意我们心领了，你要爱慢慢爱到够
可能你天生博爱还是大爱，不然该说是你乱爱就是悲哀
真的不能明白你脑袋是怎样

其实我表现大方，你却在那耍小气
我想你不懂你的举动不是让我觉得生气
而是让我觉得你没志气
不如还是你省点力气
要是你想要斗气，不如争气
努力去找寻属于你真正的福气
我希望我讲这些你有听进去
不然实在让人没力气

Apologize

2010-04-21T23:03:00.000-07:00

Im sorry,
i got a hot bad tempe.
Im so sorry,
That i always being emo.

Pls forgive me.

大好の 이 남성 아름다움세요

2010-04-21T09:35:00.000-07:00

回家乡的那3个星期
我疯狂的做了一件事
就是煲韩剧
现在才想起要跟大家分享
啊
我可以3 天内看完16集
不出街势必看到大结局
哈哈
刚起床开始看看到5点早上都不甘愿睡
第一次那么疯狂

就是这部
原来是美男/是美男啊？

男主角
黄泰京张根锡饰

JEREMY

高美男/高美女

姜新禹

其他细节OR剧情简介
自己SEARCH
然后DOWNLOAD看看就懂~
我懒惰写 ~
哈哈哈

RATE：99%

突然

2010-04-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

终于我又甘愿回来写东西了
心情最近很复杂很DOWN。
刚回到 KL 快一个星期了，也失业了一个星期
选择离开那里的原因太多，不是儿戏不是不要认真
而是看到太多人的真面目后觉得很失望

如果给我选择我宁愿什么都不知道，
旁边发生的事情都假装看不到听不到

话也不多说，装一装哑巴也未必是一件坏事

其实早就知道为什么要催眠自己什么都不知道？

我很想找个地方把自己关起来
就关自己起来1 个月
傻啊作梦啊
没有可能啊
时间不会陪你一起停顿下来
会饿死的啊怎么办啊
人衰起来真的很狼狈的阿



身边的朋友突然一个个的给我大惊喜
真的有时心脏如果每有很强壮我会给你们给吓死
人的一生就是会不断地遇到挫折我们无法预料也无法控制
既然错误已经造成了不如学着去接受然后解决吧
其实我很兴奋也很替你开心
但是我只能说，这顽皮的小鬼每次遇到不适合的时机
现在我惟有一直在背后给你鼓励根帮助
就像你曾经帮助我的
我们一起解决问题，一起熬过这些日子
好吗？

不要再那么沮丧了，无论发生什么事，我都不会什么都不管的
相信我

Movie,Movie and Movie!

2010-04-08T04:39:00.000-07:00

rate: ****

rate:****

rate:*****

rate:**

This few day keep Movie with them
Thanks Christine,Ben,Fish and Wilson tat almost accompany me everyday.
LOVE<3

7days more need to back
SOB

need spend more time with family for coming this week d~

The Simple Precious *

2010-04-06T09:53:00.000-07:00

有点长的文章我用了好久来打
我这几个月都没发表那么长的文章了。。。。

BANNER突然换了新的
看看他部落格里我们的照片都出现在他的BANNER里
原来才发现他早就把我融入他的生活记录里
只是我之前没发现
原来这其中的含义
是我跟他的点点滴滴，看一看发现我的文章好像少了很多关于我们感情的进展
其实我们都很好好像有时不是很好
哈哈很难解释我们两个奇怪的相处方式
就是两个人又爱又恨却又好像都欠骂
这2个星期回来KK我们两个又要远距离了最可怕就是距离
一旦太远就会大吵大闹
开始头脑会想东想西很厉害天马行空有几夸张就有多夸张
心就会乱动乱西很有想象力那样自己编剧写对白
其实很奇怪也不懂为什么距离一远我们两个就会故意假装很忙每天把行程排到满
就是为了要填补那种空空的感觉

开始的几天我有神经质般乱发脾气很生气很不爽为什么我一回去他就对我热情减退
又一直吵吵吵吵然后搞到大家都不开心
他却这样的告诉我
Bao bei,i aso dunno why when u r not beside me,i will being like this,maybe just when u r not here,i will feeling nothing can do,so im trying to find other things to do..let the time past

那种感觉好像，哦，也对。每天晚上他就是等我放工后我们一起煮晚餐。我的工作时间长，所以他也只好等到晚上9点10点才吃晚餐
我不在，他不用等我回家，不用陪我聊天，不用哄我睡觉
整天就是这样没什么人可以找是真的会很无聊
也许我习惯了他在我生活中的模式所以突然不在身边的感觉是很怪的

有时在想双鱼座的人为什么都会那么情绪化？爱胡思乱想？爱耍浪漫？
是真的而且是控制不到的那种
我的那突然来的EMO威力真的很难顶吧？
我所讲的话做的事可以毫无想对方的感受狠狠地发泄了后
才会发现
哦哦糟糕好像有点过分了点
但是真的是没有心的不是故意的
我讲的是真心话来的

这两个月里，我们之间也发生了不少大事小事
每天都见到大家的日子里，摩擦是一定有的
我们不算同居只是大家都在同一屋檐下，跟自己的室友一间房
不要觉得讶异为什么我们是情侣却不要同住一间房
也许是我单纯的想要我们之间不要那么毫无保留留那一点点空间
或是就当我想要保持神秘感？哈哈
这样的爱情才可以走的更远不是吗
一起生活让我们学会了如何互相照应
其实更骄傲的事是这两个月我们为了节省所以我们自己下厨
减少到外面吃的负担这的确真的省了满多生活费的
我的厨艺真的突然进步的超多可以说是一次比一次更有STANDARD 哈哈
每次两个人到超级市场总是
一直想需要添加什么日常用品，这星期要进什么食才又不能超支而烦恼
渐渐的，我们爱上了到超级市场度过我漫长的假日那种乐趣是很奇妙的感觉
记得有几次我们说好久没吃海鲜好想吃鱼来了这里那么久都好像没什么吃到鱼的感觉
两个人决定买了一条鱼回去试试煮来吃但却担心会煮的很腥很难吃
他打电话问他妈妈怎么煮我问妈妈怎么弄
敢敢就买回去试，结果效果还是没有我们自己妈妈那么好吃拉当然
就很不服气下次再来试一次

为了让我们的健康着想我还是会想着更过的新食谱新料理
每天放工前都到MALL 低层的CAREFOUR买食才
这种有点师奶的行为让我有时觉得不懂是幸福还是被人笑
但我自己却打从心底的觉得生活就该如此我只是早点感觉到吧
想着想着
突然自己傻傻的笑一下因为脑海里浮现了一个画面
就是每天我到家他从房间飞下来大门开门给我的样子
那个样子很像儿子看到妈妈回来很兴奋的问今天有什么好吃的
然后 YAADAA！！！！（他每次逗我的）他说NARUTO开心就会这样说
他很爱动漫 *我都说他是小孩
我听到这句话无论整天再累我都突然忘了然后一直哈哈哈哈的笑

两个人到厨房准备，我看见饭煲里都煮好了饭我最讨厌处理的蒜米都剥好了切碎了然后最差我下厨的最后一步就等开饭了
也许这些小事不会很难做但我感动的是
从一开始他只懂得别人煮好了再来吃的少爷
变成都记得我每次唠叨的说不能做点事然后大家就可以早点吃晚餐的教训
就这样一起把晚餐煮好一起吃着自己煮的菜那种感觉很实在
从第一次煮的分量不会拿捏而太多或太少
但过后的刚刚好，真的是很令我觉得这种FEEL太厉害了！哈哈
不然你以为做妈妈那么简单啊但是想煮的料理分量味道都难到半死了
然后每次我都逼他为我煮的食物打分数
从65% 到后来有98% 我整个很爽哈哈
记得他说过吃到很爱的食物整个人是很爽的一直扒饭
我想，妈妈的这句话是很厉害的 ‘要绑着一个男人的心就要先绑着他的胃’才算成功
难怪妈妈说；现在你不学习怎么料理你以后会叫妈妈救命你说妈妈厉害吗
我现在有空就打电话问妈妈她平时煮的那道料理的食谱，煮法
还好平时还有偷师现在才还有不错的手艺
晚餐吃完，碗碟每次都要推来推去，不过每次都是我赢！
因为晚餐是我的功劳，这些过后的手尾只好给他来处理一下咯
也许有一天他妈妈看到他自己的儿子会做家务了会满感动的或许有点感激
因为我是有功劳的！！YAADAA

我亲爱的，
谢谢你
我很想对你说的话其实一直都没有老实的在你面前说
这些日子里，我不是一个人因为我多了你在我每一天的生活里
一起分担一起承担
我想家会哭我想朋友会哭
你是哪个唯一知道的人也是唯一在当时可以安慰我，擦干我眼泪的人
无论遇到什么问题你都是那么豁达的告诉我，
这也只不过是人生中的挑战罢了相信我们一定可以一起度过
就是这句我们
让我知道原来不是一个人而是两个人

我不想渴望有多奢华却享有着难得的平凡

我有一股冲动想嫁了哈哈

很无奈

2010-04-02T09:18:00.000-07:00

真的忘记自己多久没有UPDATE自己的BLOG
我惭愧着打着每个字每段句子

可能我其实真的开始害怕那种直接了当的发泄自己的情绪
还是这里已经不是完全属于我自己的天地
其实早就变了大家可以轻易关心彼此生活的科技
听我这说起来也真的挺假惺惺
但这确是千真万确的事实

回了家的感觉真的很兴奋
可能只认为就那5个月没回家？
但对于一个思念家的人来说那几个月是多久的日子啊
不陌生却熟悉每样的人与事
抱着那种势必回来休息个够的心情

我受够了
不我不是不开心不是很委屈
只是单纯的想埋怨一下子

原来五个月以来
我学会的不只是
如何独立生活而是如何努力生存
是不一样的
我就是那么固执不接受他们想要默默背后想要扶助的心意
通话中从不让他们发现有任何委屈的蛛丝马迹
爸妈早已没我办法
这个女儿啊就是这样
也许太固执的人有时真的很欠揍
但是我真的很想靠自己是完完全全的不需要靠家人

很想尽快可以做到答应爸妈的承诺
真的很努力着~

原来啊，那种独立靠自己的生活是那么的踏实那么的有意义

好，我要停止情绪化
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回来跟家人朋友都去了很多地方吃了很多美食
但也有摩擦
朋友之间的问题早在我离开是已有了大洞
只是没有来得及补救所以现在发生了事情
我不想这样跟你们这样是多么的不安
真的不容易才能在茫茫人海认识彼此
还要那么老友更是难上加难
但又有多少人懂着道理？谁会珍惜这种缘分？

不懂

现在很想发泄

所以在这里乱写

看看就算了。。
反正

没重点

say HELLO to 20th!

2010-03-21T09:30:00.000-07:00

ITS MY BIG DAY
and say hello to 20th~and no more little girl from today~:(

Keep discuss with my lovely roomate Rae to having dinner together with her bf louis and my baby since evening until 9pm
and finally,our decision is~
The Garden at curve

Always passing but havent tried the food there since i move to pj
and really less chance to having dinner with her :)
thanks ya darling rae
and aso my baby arthur ~ the one who keep make me suddenly mad suddenly surprise tat day
:)
muacksss
I got a memorable tat night

After dinner baby classmate allen suddenly come and date us and we headed to mamak yumcha
EAT AGAIN @@"
and then..
we headed to ICITY~

so pretty place
unfortunely when the time we go~the security started beep and said closing
SOB

and 20th march
Rae and baby pick me up thn we headed to ss2 having our dinner
after tat we back home and prepare to santuary
clubbbing with whole gang housemate
dance alot
but i admited im kinda lousy now~
coz i really seldom clubbing since i move to pj
sob~
no nice place for club aso the point~

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and i will be more hardworking to update jo la
buy jo new hp tat can capture more clear photos =）

2 days more back kk!!!
i cant wait~
keep gain weight now
blame my working time is too long and make my time to dinner is so supper time lo!
haih

since i come kl droped to the weight i so satisfied
and now~gain again..why why why

Recently

2010-03-17T08:57:00.000-07:00

I waited them to come here looking for me a month and a month~
And finally~that is the day!
Really missed them alot~Maybe they really doesnt know abt it~
Im sorry my lovely 6 dear friend,i already knew wat is the important aim for myself
So,dont worry.i know wat to do~i will always remember i am who i am.
And never losted again ok?
I dunno how to type a long and interesting article anymore
POOR me.
Pls forgive my coldness
I am absolutely stressful nowdays
And really annoyed with my finacial problems recently
Well,its the time to have a break for my body,mind and soul
So i decided to take leave around 3 weeks with my boss
I gonna back kk!!
ahhhl...wanna enjoy 99 with my lovely home sweet home
i miss my bed alot,my house,my family and frens

BEsides.i going enjoy holiday and aso got another mission again
tat is SNIPS CONVO HAIR SHOW is coming

and exam again!

well,im more stress now
anyone wanna be my model?pls

HOME

2010-03-02T08:50:00.000-08:00

很想家

迟来的文章我抱歉

2010-02-20T07:50:00.000-08:00

我只想学会低调的做我该做的事
所以我开始学会了保持那么一点冷漠
可能想让自己不要那么容易被看穿

再更努力吧那些了解自己的人有一天会明白的

其实有看得懂我其实想说些什么吗？
如果你懂我也许觉得很感动

Stop cruel ing anything here

and just show some photos that i taken this 2 month?

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Cam whore b4 work~ did i change?

yea,r right,im getting fatter!

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my valentine

my love did something!
and it touched and suprised me alot!

our hse key chain~
a couple bear~he said why the bear in pinkish costume?don have other choice mer?
but sorry baby,this pair bear is the only attrated me!

I droped my tears infron of him when i reading the words he wrote.

Yes i knew,baby u r try so hard to let our love turn better and better this time
(we do quarrel alot since i move to pj)
And he show me how hard he wanna this relationship to be continue
I dunno how express the feeling tat btw us last few week ago..
Just let it past and we r fine now =)

I love u <3>

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THE CNY 2010
Finally can met my beloved family
omg,i missed them alot~!

my sister~Eling~getting mature and pretty~
phew whitt

the sexy hot red lady my mom

i just realise,i wanna say love u is not hard when u really hard to meet u mom often.

my boss look so fierce!

my lil bro he getting taller!!!!

just within 3 month at least he grow 15 cm?
ya i knw i look fat d,SOB

ya lo,coz u lo!
hahahahaha
we owez cook dinner together after i work~9pm!!!!eat 10 .30pm!do u think tat i won gain my weight again?

the kuso one!

BACK TO PJ AGAIN!

wooohooo

HOLIDAY IS END

NEED TO WORK LIKE NORMAL AGAIN
IS REALLY KILLING PPL WHO STILL HAVENT STOP IN THE HOLIDAY MODE

Be back soon

2010-01-28T09:53:00.000-08:00

我已开始慢慢谈忘什么是快乐什么是难过的定义原来麻木的人生是可悲的

updated soon

im sorry im emo

im updated

2010-01-23T09:21:00.000-08:00

Apologize to ma lovely bloggie
i had no bother u for too long
wuuu..
here some pic with my new salon worker in the club

PS:i work at tropicana citymall top passion now.
KDU AND KBU STUDET CAN COME OVER BECAUSE ALL STYLING GET 30% DISCOUNT

Mr Delmond : Top Stylish

Miss Winky:Previous Senior stylish

Ely my bestie in the salon

Shh.im praying

toilet time
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thurday off day with my baby
hanging out
and EAT is the most aim for us

THE MAGIC WOK
value value lunch meal!!!!
THE FOOD RATE 8/10

FEEL LIKE GETING FAT NOWDAY
COOK AT HOUSE WITH BABY EVERYDAY
after i work~and the time is 9.30pm
anyway~i wanna be proud of myself coz i knw how to cooked finally!
and baby comment not bad!

woooohooo
we need to find out more dishes for the day coming..

love ya

muacks

xoxoxo

SO BUSY dizzy

2010-01-13T10:22:00.000-08:00

currently at PJ
and work so hard now
sorry for no time update this 2 week,i will update nex week
stay tuned

Love this.

2010-01-06T08:27:00.000-08:00

although both of us nt really street wear kaki's
but still we did addicted with kikstyo tee design last year.
So yeah.we r wearing the tee and it seem like couple tee,but actually not.
its different design ok?

and i wore his tee last sunday,no idea..Just the reason i forget to bring tee let me wear for casual.
Just having a simple off day again.
Don wanna hang out to wasting money,so i go PJ and just having fun with all his hsemate.
Went pasar malam at ss2 and go movie after that
1am the movie started and the movie name something like assitant of vampire?blablabla
make all of us mostly fall asleep~and baby said the movie not bad?OPPS
weirdo he is.
After movie then went to the parking~and one of his housemate car mirror was bang by some bastard and steal the laptop inside the car.
Well,wat a bad luck day for him.:(
So ya,do not put any baggie or something attract thief to curious of it and will bang ur car mirror~
The laptop he just using for 2 month oni~HOW SAD ahh!!
He still doing his assignment 1~PITY him

the next morning i mean afternoon,all of us awake already time like 12 or 1pm?
Then went to the restaurant tat near the hse and we take our lunch together.
Nothing complain~the food stall just awesome!
Everything just delicious and with the very rational prices.
After the lunch me and baby went to giant and restock something for our daily use.
juice,instant noodle,spaggetti,shampoo,tooth paste,soap,snack,and etc.
and we buy almost rm150 for it.
Then both of us stay at the book store and we r reading for almost 1 hours or 2 hours there~
HAHA
Well,we just siting on the floor and reading~its really rarely happening ler?
But we just enjoy it,we read different kind of books.
I feel like stick at the bookstore gain our knowledge,not really gonna have wat entertaiment that is really fun and just simple reading inside the bookstore,finding the book tat we interested and shared.

And we having dinner at hse tat all cooked by his hse mate lester~
hmmm..and guess wat,i really 1st time see the kitchen 4 man cooking together
Such a cute happening for me~HAHA
the house women doesnt cook?Anyway,the food all do taste good honestly.
Clap clap to lester.
After dinner we do planing go sing k,but some reason to force us to cancel the plan
So we head to play snooker and pool

im so so with playing pool oni~

and last,the prety girl lavendar~she make me feel like don dare to take pic with her
coz she really fair
and stand beside her everyone turn yellowish.LOL

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The next morning b4 i went to work
my baby cook me porridge as my breakfast!!
awwwwwwwwwwwwww
just can give 90% for this porridge~
really taste so good la!!

and my baby can cook well~even better than me!!!
i just can say~he will be a very good cheif oni for me~
HEHE
im addicted and in love with ur cook,baby!!!
cook for me for life okay?

MUACKS<3

XOXO

Baby said this coming saturday
cook me soya sausee chicken,the special egg,and fried rice!!!
i cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BABY,I WAN THIS:(

2010-01-05T01:50:00.000-08:00

Baby said got poddle no bangkok trip?
But,I wan both

HAPPY 2010 !

2010-01-02T04:11:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone
Don blame me why recently so lazy to blog
Coz i had no time!Salon is busy,many trouble is coming to me.
And i just can say,My Xmas Eve,New year Eve is nothing special
The only thing is I sure be with him.
New year EVE i still working and until quiet late,but actually me and baby already got plan
We gonna go countdown at Santuary with his housemate at PJ.
And i tot i can rush to been there,but unfortunely im late.
So everyone is go out,my pity baby waiting me at house alone and our plan canceled.
So wat to do?Just at house,and cooked ourself.
Hmmm..spaggetti for him again,do promised him to cook for him quiet long time.
And ya i knew he abit down.Well,i can understand.And who don wish to had fun with fren during new year eve?Thats the oni day the whole world ppl celebrating.

So both of us just see the firework outside the windows then
happy new year baby~we greeting each other.
But wat to do,not our fault,just my working is not tat flexible.When ppl rest then is our working time,when we rest everyone was busying.LOL

And here the some photos

he is click click the laptop again.GRRRR

Then ask him bear me,HUHU
im heavy~and his weight and mine actually nt too big different
Well... baby do wanna bear me~HAHA
Owez bear me on the way from his house to 7-11 tat near his house.
ngek ngek
i need diet and pls,u don drop weight~
if not i might feel nexttime the one need bear is u,not me~LOL

And last,a goodnight kiss for him before i did my mask..
He continue click his laptop and i start annoyed beside and ask him sleep here don touch laptop until i fall asleep~
A goodnight kiss on my forehead and i do fall asleep so fast...coz im tired
@@"

No matter how,the only thing i mind is
I just wanna spend my time with him for all festival.That is enough for me.
We wanna continue stick together for all festival coming later..
Thanks for everything .
<3

new year 2010 wishlist
1.Diet until i felt satisfied with my weight
2.Tattoo * with him
3.Belly pierce or tongue pierce again
4.he bring me go bangkok at march my birthday!
5.our love is getting more n more tough
6.Good job in my career

Blissful that i got u.

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No lies,Just Love,Our Promised

2009-12-27T09:36:00.001-08:00

一切尽在不言中。。。
如果说是原谅了，不如说算是通过了考验
也许这是那么的巧妙
一路这样走过来，
我们相爱却也会彼此伤害

最后却告诉自己
原来

我们其实没有说谁爱谁比较多比较深
只有我们两人才能互相平衡
这个平衡点，是谁也无法代替的

也许认证了一句话
会最爱你的人，
并不代表是
最适合你的人

我们都不知道这份爱是否可以走到多远，
因为没有想过什么时候才是我们的终点。

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我们的第二个圣诞节~去年跟今年我们都在不同的地方度过

也许今年就只有你跟我也许没有往年那么热闹也没有到夜店狂欢倒数
但我们就是宁可两个人粘在一起
半夜肚子饿电话一个1300131300 给MCD
两个人吃4个人的食物 2份BURGERSET， 1 份炸鸡他最爱，1份BUBUR AYAM~
我知道为了要我开心，这两个月无论你再难熬都忍了下来

Just like what he said,i am arthur princess,so he do so bao bei me.
and i do admit,my hot tempe attitude still continious,and sometime really can being really horrible.
The ring in the photos,is the 1st year anniversary ring of him to me.
and while we wanna headed back to take the ring~and the jewery shop closed!
Well,the staff should inform us b4 we say we gonna return later,but she dint.
My mood turn so bad,dint smile anymore,keep on spread madness to him,say wanna back now,don wanna eat..even i knw both of us really whole day dint eat.
Yes,i am stubburn head rite?And i do make him guilty.
He told me,2molo im not going back kk,i will go back to take the ring
Actually 25th he gonna go airport early 8am~coz his eldest sister MEL gonna married on this 26th DECEMBER.
Actually i do promised his sister to attend her wedding b4 we 2 leave kk.
But since november,we seperate then i dint mention wana back with him d.And once i feel wanna back with him~the flight ticket is too expensive already.
So i do feel guilty alot tat i dint back with him together.
But now i make him guilty and wanna not going back kk cause of the ring.
And tat night,i found tat,Yeah,he doing his best for me and just wanna appreaciate everything belong to our love.
Cause the ring,is his promise.He responbility for it.
He cried inside the toilet,and i notice im so wrong.I go hug him and apologize for my selfishness.
I say sorry baby,i knw im stubbun and selfish~Sayang sayang back ok?u must back kk ok?its ur sister wedding,and 1 life oni once~i cant back already,u must back coz we 2 is in 1 ok?
He still crying like a baby tat time then,He said you are so bad,wuwuwu..
How cute my baby..a kiss on his cheeck MUACKS.

he feel better and like a big kids watching the funny movie again.
and i called MCD silently~AKAKAKAKAKA
im hungry like mad hell.
i mean we two.

The early morning tat b4 he go airport
i awake him~and i asleep back
and last he awake me
He said buy me drinks or breakfast
then he going out a while.
I knw im ugly~with the very bengkak eyes~
hahaha~without make up eyes is like @@

And last yeah,this is the fav photo of me~
We smile so bright~
heeee XD!
slowly feeling tat our smile getting alike.
so ppl say tat,2 ppl owez facing will become alike

And about our engaged?
his parent keep ask both of us engaged tat is truth~haha

Alot ppl asked me issit truth?

I wont give a sure answer.
Just can say
Follow the faith.

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TO: symbol *****~ are u feeling burn with my article?yes u are!and i do really wanna make u more HOT~ahahaha~
U love arthur?And im sorry,U better don appear my blog since 2 day~u will hurtful still.
U feeling spoiled my blog?or getting me down?
Im sorry symbol ***** i makin u piss off~
Don give me chance to catch ur dead point pls.u will totally ashame.
你没脑我没你办法
你喜欢在旁边鬼吼鬼叫我也只好让你发泄下去
我要安静的看看你到底心里想什么？
我怕自己脸皮厚所以没说你嫉妒我
但是你很明显的自打嘴巴我同情你
讲真的，做女生可以象你那么不懂羞耻真的~！我佩服你！！！
你越是想看我们分手我就偏要一直给你看多甜蜜
怎样？有种你来HACKED我的BLOG！
来来来~
IM WAITING FOR u..im waiting for..waiting for u hack my blog..
IM SORRY IM KINDA EVIL
xd

PEEPS!!!! TELL ME WHO IS LOSER!!!!
TELL ME TELL THE SYMBOL~WHO IS LOSER?

HAHAHAHAHAHA

SYMBOL X TIMES 5, tis is another article for u

2009-12-25T20:38:00.000-08:00

Hey hey u
THE SYMBOL OF X TIMES 5!
Listen to my blog music~
That is silent night and i do really tot it will give u some feel of peaceful ?
But im sorry,u still being so over exciting and self high over here.
Wat to do?
I cant do anything
. Well,Don think that ur words tat powerful tat enough to
spoiled me?spoiled my blog?

Oh plezzz.

Im still dare to keep my CBOX

neehhh neehhh
and still at ur left hand side of ur windows neehh neehhh still under the banner wat i SAY KEEP TALKIN SHIT U MAKE ME FAMOUS
did u see it?can u see it?
can u understand and can u read in english propely?
I don even need to reply u anything ,and then u still thicked face to keep talking urself huh?
are u okay?
Don attack back who reply u if u still normal
Cause the object u wanna attack is me~
EII.
is me

YOANNE.don mistaken~

u hate me?i rape ur father?ur bf?ur sibling?thats why u callin me BITCH?

u makin me fun for everyday visiting my blog and read the cbox
see the counter gain ing my visitors ?
and the fixed visitors of my blog everyday
is u lehhh symbol XXXXX
thanks u symbol X my haters but my blog supporter!
admit u love to visit my blog!XD
eiii
SYMBOL X TIMES 5, tis is another article for u
see how much i love u?

besides,
i wanna write an article for someone.
Tonight i will update okay?

3 days more

2009-12-21T22:18:00.001-08:00

Still got 3 days more~
anyone can exchange present with me ?
:)

狼来了~~~~凸

2009-12-18T07:10:00.000-08:00

哇，又来LIAO~又有狼来LIAO~
两天前又有朋友SMS我，MSN找我，就连FACEBOOK都有人通知我
我BLOG CBOX 又有人来乱LIAO~
我好奇就看一看，真的吓我一大跳
才几个小时离开我电脑，COMMENT突然变一大堆LIAO

又来咬我LIAO~
好好好，你高兴就好
反正我生活也是无聊
那就随便来跟你聊聊
其实也没什么大不了

因为你的英文程度不用讲LIAO~还要严重的漏出马脚
虽然你ROJAK 的语言
有点好笑
我没说可笑
你硬要这样被人取笑
我只好在电脑前偷笑

问我
16 Dec 09, 14:24 *****: why u never take pic without make up and contacts de? scare ppl see how ugly u are? hahahaha
16 Dec 09, 14:24 *****: don always think that u r very sweet bah ok?
16 Dec 09, 14:24 *****: so vui la if dare take pic with no make up see how

为什么不拍素颜照？还要我不要以为自己很甜美，其实他说的VUI意思是恶心，然后要我拍张素颜照

我就说对啊，我素颜超恶心，所以不要吓坏大众，然后顺到确定你是不是SABAHAN~因为我看出你的SLANK LIAO~
然后你恼羞成怒LIAO~
哈哈
就警告我说你不要了 LEN SI哦！！
我看LIAO一直想你的意思是什么
然后求你不要来我BLOG竟然我那么恶心，你看了眼睛会污染，要看去FACEBOOK找一找看
我记得我有UPLOAD 过~
你还警告我说如果没有怎样？你说屌
没想到你看完我的照~O H MY GOD
然后你说
wah why so fat de oh fei po yuan lai u so ugly de ugly then ugly la why put make up
你的的GRAMMAR好到我看了几次终于明白LIAO

又丑又肥我再不化妆可以去自尽LIAO~阿哈

然后被其他人ATTACK回去

他又来
说
*****: b i t c h

18 Dec 09, 14:56

*****: cheh still support her wah act nice there diao la u r yoanne's ***** meh

其实我这次看不懂你想讲什么
然后过了4个小时他又来看我
然后突然发脾气说
*****: take bra pic wah go be model la no ppl wan c so small
18 Dec 09, 18:50 *****: she hiao po la 18 Dec 09, 18:50
*****: why u all yoanne de dogs ah? 18 Dec 09, 18:50
*****: u mu gou la f u c k on the street give ppl watch free porn hahahahaha so cheap no ppl care
18 Dec 09, 18:46 *****: she suffer a bit onli then like wan die wan die if dun wan suffer then go die la stupid yoanne hiao po
这次又找另一个TOPIC，我什么时候说我痛苦的快死了？我现在还不是好好的在这里
我再街上干让路人看~ 但是没人看~
你知道你会自问自答的病有多严重吗？还自己突然生气因为别人羞辱你？
再说我是淫荡女然后说我穿奶罩拍照，然后叫我去做模特二然后他又自己回答说没人看
因为我是NEGATIVE A CUP~！！！
老娘看了笑到停不到~~~~

再看下去说我跟别人干过LIAO的~是淫荡女
干吗这样，女人做爱就是淫荡
那你是怎样变出来？
你爸自己来？
还是你妈也淫荡？
如果你是女的，OHNONO~你一定是跟我们都一样？！
我真的一直笑~不停笑~哈哈哈哈哈
上次的说在床还不够，这个更猛
在街上~
什么人都有，什么话都讲
因为你什么人都不是？
你是
岔岔岔岔岔？

我不会CLOSE CBOX，

就凭你？

这些可能脑浆都还没完整的岔岔岔岔岔？

网路世界真是可怕
我怕就不会上网啦
凸

对不起，我捏自己！！哈哈

HoHoHo

2009-12-18T02:34:00.000-08:00

Just be patient~
LOVE

啊

2009-12-15T16:48:00.001-08:00

我不是你想象中的勇敢

也会害怕的时候

好吗？

我很多话一只说不出口也写不出来
我只好唱出来

最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单是寂寞或
悲惨一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无
声黑暗心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无
声黑暗心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还
傻刺猬的坚强全都是假象

我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

昨天在YOUTUBE看到我以前中学的学长发表的RAP
快点去支持！
他很屌我讲真的！

http://www.youtube.com/user/ahgaogao

全部听完~！我命令你~哈哈哈哈

SILENT

2009-12-12T08:55:00.000-08:00

my blog is getting lame~
and my life getting simple..
dunno how 2 describe everyday wats going on now..
dunno how 2 express my feeling anymore now..
dunnno how 2 showing ppl my opinion now..

I become more n more quiet day by day?

tobecontinue

Im so sorry

手足

2009-12-08T07:13:00.000-08:00

我慢慢习惯了
没有太多复杂的情绪波动
不需要顾虑太多人的情绪
只是需要做好自己
就算多不原意
也只好欺骗自己
这是我想要的

我很想对你说，你的冷漠
让我觉得无比的心痛
也许你忘记了我会寂寞
因为你有他跟他们的陪伴
你说你不会丢下我
就算我失去了所有
我在等你在等
等着谁会先开口
为何要这样对我说
不联络是为了看我是否忘记了
忘记你了？
这不是你会说的
为何我深信无论有多远距离
这份友情永远不会变质

因为
我们
就像
手足
一样

难道人就是那么经不起考验？

对不起，
我无心变得那么MOODY

才发现世界那么大，我却如此渺小

2009-12-02T20:09:00.000-08:00

其实很想天天都写BLOG，但发现心很空，脑很空
很盲目的做同样的事情虽然有节目的每天但心里还是无比空虚

突然想到，原来圣诞节快到了
没有什么特别感想，有点酸，有点刺
虽然嘴硬一直觉得无所谓一个人也没关系
但心里总是突然觉得孤单会难受的

他回去聚家人朋友，其实从前说我们要一起回去参加他大姐的婚礼
现在是不需要了。

看到FACEBOOK 我最爱的朋友们最近都很愉快，
是否渐渐忘了我呢？
还是不想打扰我呢？
或是
来我BLOG都开始变得越来越少了呢?
就连我最近发生的事也不知道了吗？

不如说
其实我伪装的很好

少打回去找你们是因为我怕怕突然话题减少了的冷场又怕失去了当时我们嬉闹的感觉

我真的害怕会让自己觉得好像外人一样

看到这张圣诞气氛的图片我才觉得跟我很贴切

做一颗自己发亮的圣诞树而已

还是其实
可以像这样远远的送上祝福的圣诞节？
你们要快乐=）

好好，伤感的TONE停止在这里~

抵抗力最近变差了
天气不乖老是突然很热突然下大雨
然后感冒了 3 天~ 好像没什么好转
自然的。。
微笑变少了的
疲累还是一样没有减少
这星期去了满多地方

SKYBAR

我比较喜欢LUNABAR的FEEL~
最后自拍是一定要的事

跟KIM去逛街
女人就是疯狂买了不少其实也还好没有乱买~ 都是买了一些实际的来了3个星期其实也没买什么
就趁又有朋友陪伴所以满满足的

理想距离还有多远？
在这里发现原来自己渺小的很

很懒惰再耍情绪
想做回一个快乐宝贝！
谢谢你们的加油
我会一直往前冲！！！！！！！！！！！！

你有偷偷在看吗？

2009-11-30T06:15:00.000-08:00

搁置了BLOG3天~其实自己一直都有上来看~
留言都有看~我都不知道该讲些什么~
就一句谢谢你们就是我最想表达的感受，很感谢也感恩
你们却不怎么认识我，却相信着或一直站在我的立场体会着我的感受
我很感动
我说真的

不想写些什么因为我想好好沉淀，
也让我的BLOG可以恢复以前的平静
从来没有想过要很多人知道这个唯一我现在能够完全不用保留的地方
但是我想开始变得越来越难，因为我让一个很爱我的人知道了这个记录了我一点一滴的地方
就是我的爸爸

4天前，我放工后根朋友去TESCO买我的日用品，还有工作可以填饱肚子的食物
我爸爸突然打电话给我，我才发现多久没有和他聊聊天
可以说是我来了KL几天就有几天没有好好的聊过。。

因为他也很忙着他的工作，在外地出差，所以很难跟我联络上所以妈妈就时时都一直有打来
电话里传来爸爸的声音，我听得出他真的在想我。
只是声音还是跟平时那样普通，也不是那么激动，好像多了一份严肃

我们的对话

问我说，GIRL？你最近怎样了？
我答“我很好啊，开始工作了，现在才刚放工”
爸“你现在在哪里？”
我"在TESCO买一些日常用品跟食物啊”

我心里其实很怕爸爸会提起他的事，也是我这两个星期唯一故作什么都没事的事

因为如果问了我，我知道我无法回答也不会回答

结果越不想面对的事就是一定会出现
他~还是问了

爸“你跟他（我前男友）怎样了”
我还是假装着我冷淡的回答“没有怎样了，我们分手了”
爸“做么分手了？”
我“没有为什么，就不合，还是来KL我们发现彼此很多东西已经不能像以前那样了吧”
我真的很不想让他发现~~~

爸“GIRL，不只这样吧？我要你跟我说所有的事情，不要再瞒着我了，可以吗？”

我真的有点不知所措了因为他这样问我

我“没有啊，真的没有什么”
我真的一直否认
爸“你不要以为我真的什么都不知道好吗？我都知道的好吗？”
我“你怎么知道了？谁告诉你的？”

爸“没有人告诉我，我要知道的话自然我都知道。我的女儿发生事情我感受不到吗？”
我知道这样很牵强，所以我问了一开始我觉得不肯能的唯一我爸会知道的原因

我“你看我的BLOG？”
爸“对！”

我当场有点傻了，我“你为什么会知道我的BLOG？为什么你会去看的？
一直在想，为什么他会有我BLOG的LINK~
好像某日我们一家人出去吃饭的时候~他看到我网站~然后又我的照片~他问我这是什么
我好像又敷衍的回答~只是一个在网上可以写日记的网站~
这是我的日记…………
但我真的真的没想到他会这样的放在心上
就是我随便说的 IAMYOANNE.BLOGSPOT.COM
当下我呆了~因为这个世界上真的不会有永远的秘密是可以瞒着自己亲生父母的
我知道，爸爸你都知道了
我就开玩笑的问了他~我知道他会~不过我只想借着机会扯开话题的
他说 “我会叫我秘书翻译给我啊”
他问我"为什么之前在KK你告诉我他对你多好，他为人多好？为什么不是这样子的？
我真的不会回答
我一直说，我没事，很好~很坚强~
然后说回到家再打给你~因为我怕再TESCO里失控
我的眼泪每次都不受控制的

其实为什么我会死都要隐瞒着一切？
因为我就是不要听到这样的话
为什么我要一个人面对，什么都不讲，没有当他们是爸爸妈妈，心里没有他们了，
而我最不愿意听到的是这一句
我做爸爸/妈妈的什么都做不到，我女儿被欺负，受委屈我什么都帮不到~
让我心最痛的就是这句~
因为我宁可他们埋怨我，责怪我，唠叨我，劝告我，什么都好
就是他们责怪自己让我的心痛的当场无法释然，我一路讲眼泪也一面掉~
上了车，完全无法控制眼泪
我问我朋友，你也是一个这样爱妈妈的人，如果你妈妈责怪自己做得不够好是因为你不快乐你的心会痛吗？你知道我的心现在多痛吗？

这是我分手后没有哭过了一个星期的第一次掉下我的眼泪
我的心痛，我解释不了，也控制不了
因为这是我选择的路，我要自己负责，不是他们的错
19年来我从来没让他们真正放心过，
我始终都是那个让他们担心的那个不独立，依赖心很重，做东西粗心大意让他们又爱又恨的女儿
我真的不想自己一辈子都要依赖着身边的人
小的时候依赖父母长大依赖朋友结婚又要依赖老公
我真的不想自己就这样过一生~
所以我明知道会不习惯，会辛苦，会失败却要硬着头皮度过
明知道我会很不舍会想念却要忍着泪水，忍着思念的一直往前走
知道那天离开的那天，我看着妈妈那张不舍得我离开家里的那张脸，
眼泪流下是因为担心我不会洗衣，不常整理房间，不懂做家务，不想煮东西吃
我那天强忍着眼泪跟她说，我一定会照顾自己的，一滴眼泪也没有掉，不是因为我没有感觉
是因为我告诉我自己，我不会让妈妈这张不舍得，为我操心的脸再出现
所以我连在机场入关都不敢把头回头看他们站在那里看我背影的脸，我不要掉眼泪
我真的知道看自己爱的人背影自己却要远远望着的感觉我尝试过，我真的知道很难过
我的眼泪忍到坐在BOARDING SEAT 椅子上，看到我包包里面妈妈偷偷帮我带的PLASTER，PANADOL，保济丸，耳棉棒还有一些我一直告诉她不用拿给我的小东西
我哭是因为妈妈是多么细心，也知道这些东西我到这里会用到自己却不会想到要买的东西
我告诉自己，我要好好的，一定不让爸爸妈妈

这次哭了，很伤心的哭了一晚

不是为了什么爱情还是什么别的人
是为了我这一辈子最爱的两个人-爸爸妈妈
一生会为我们着想而不顾自己的两个人

我知道我的痛会是你们的两倍
因为我的一切是你们给我的

每天都是那么累，工作到9-10PM~
回到家就是梳洗过后都很晚了，上网是唯一娱乐
每次一看时间都是2-3 点才睡觉
每晚到家，都过了晚餐时间~超过9点吃东西其实对我来说很不容易
就算再饿我也吃不下了
我想我整天可以吃的最满足又很开心的只有家里的早餐了？
下午到晚上吃的，不是熟食面，面包，饼干，就是楼下唯一一间MAMAK~
有时宁可不吃~因为都吃不下~
几天前吃了KFC都突然觉得~好满足~好久没吃到的感觉~
感觉2个礼拜吃的东西加起来~都没有我在家吃到一餐晚餐的那么丰富~
现在发现有钱都有买不到的事物味道！
我好像妈妈的料理~我现在终于体会到我那些来这里读书的朋友说的
MOU DAM HOU SEK 的原因了
不是没钱，而是没得选
哈
好事~我觉得又瘦了~肚子的肥肉越来越薄~哈哈
才发现这里时间真的是不够用的，很累，却很充实
今天我跟老板到一家在PUDU的老人院，帮一些婆婆剪头发~
老板说，做善事，又可以让自己过得很有意义，也可以让自己锻炼多一点剪头发
一举两得
其实我很期待，不过我粗心大意的忘了带几样很重要的工具
老板没有责怪我的善忘，也没有教训我~
大概从1点到3/4点才大功告成
在剪头发的过程其实我心里很多感触，突然很想哭，突然很想笑
想哭是因为我从小看到可怜的老人就会很难过，更何况在老人院？这间老人院又是属于给没有经济能力的老人住的~有些婆婆是哑巴了，有些是失聪了，大多数都要用拐杖行走的
都是年纪起码65岁以上的
我今天剪了4个婆婆的头发~
年纪最大的是87岁吧？她听觉开始退化了~我站在左边跟她剪的时候我跟她说话没回答我
我还以为婆婆不想说话，当我站在右边剪的时候我再问
婆婆你今年几岁了？头发还是很多哦！！一定很久没有剪了勒？那么长了~
我帮你剪短了，很美了
真的~她有跟我对话~
她只是左边听不到而已~
婆婆比我阿嫲年纪还大~但是都超可爱的~
一直笑~呵呵呵的~
我的感受很复杂~我想如果我没有来KL~也没有跟这个老板工作我应该很难才有机会做这些有意义的事吧？
我想我会争取这样的机会~可以找我，如果我时间允许我很乐意！！
如果可以~我很想继续能有机会用自己可以的能力做自己做到的事
心情会突然变好~很开心
我才发现原来做好事很满足

在会发廊的路途~我一直跟老板谈天，才发觉，其实他很有想法，虽然年纪轻~却很有理想
很想在他身上学多点东西，不管是技术上，还是做人的态度~
我想我来到这里很幸运~
就是遇到很多对的人~让我现在一直成长~
爸，你有再看吗？
如果你又在偷看，我想让你知道，
你女儿又长大了！！！

不好意思我突然变得那么 - 另类-
虽然来了这里感觉我的BLOG变得没有什么ENTERTAIMENT~没有CLUBBING，YUMCHA ，这里去那里去的生活，虽然还是有出去的~只是比较平平淡淡~还好我还到无聊死的阶段=P！

不要觉得我BLOGGING开始很烦还是觉得无聊~
就当我比较DIFFERENT好了~哈
我老了！

吵到死不可以静一静哦？

2009-11-27T21:37:00.000-08:00

是你逼我这样做的，你应该很想看我火起来
就火一火给你看啦

我真的很想说一句
“小姐，你有病啊？”
你是有人格分裂还是极度妄想症？
不管你是小妹妹少女还是欧巴桑你跟我都一样都是女的好不好?

如果你年纪轻的小妹妹我原谅你的无知
如果你跟我年纪差不远我同情你的幼稚
如果你是上成熟的妇女我鄙视你的无知

老实说，我到现在还真的不明白你到底这样做可以得到什么
你每天来我的BLOG骂我，然后其它人就帮我骂回你
然后你又再骂回那些帮我说话的人眼睛瞎了才会帮我
不然就一直用不同名字来留言还是你叫你的好朋友和好姐妹一起来？
说真的，我的CBOX虽然是给所有人来留言的，但是你每天来
讲来讲去都是那几个字，你不会觉得SIEN的咩？

我读书就是不多，就是高中读到中五毕业
所以我不敢用英文来跟你叽里呱啦所以我尽量用中文写文章来给你明白蛤=）

你说我INSULTING我的前男友来博全部人的同情
DICTIONARY里写明INSULTING的意思是侮辱
我侮辱我前男友？你觉得你凭什么怀疑我说的是侮辱？你看到什么字眼是我在侮辱？告诉我
就是我写那篇　361　ＴＨＥ　ＥＮＤＬＥＳＳ？
里面的字字句句我告诉你，如果我是作假你老娘我现在变脑残啊我　　　
　你是神！真的是料事如神！简直是太厉害啦！

告诉你，去问我前男友，我YOANNE是在侮辱他吗？是在颠倒是非吗？是在撒谎吗？
如果他没有认同你，他也说你多此一举那我真的觉得你可以静静了=）
毕竟多管闲事也不是什么让你觉得很骄傲的事~
把自己搞得好像很三姑六婆不觉得吗？

更好笑的是，
我跟不认识的人睡觉

哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦
我也有拍照哦
看到吗？
哦，老男人

告诉你，如果说我跟你男朋友睡，
不如你说我强奸你男朋友

这样一来你也不会那么没面子？！
因为你跟你男朋友是受害者嘛！

夸张一点没关系，反正你喜欢吵吵闹闹
你有什么照片？我真的很想看看~
还是不如你把你男朋友的资料，照片，什么时候我们一起睡？在那里睡？也一次过公布
让其他人知道我跟别人睡之余，又让我们可以知道你男朋友是谁~
哦，当然，你也不为过~
自然的成为我VISITORS留言里讲的那个失败者
KOLIAN！
真的很想知道那个你说的男朋友是谁
希望不是你妄想症里的幻觉
=）

抓奸在床？
WOOOO~~~~~

好一句狐狸精！
如果我是真的跟你男朋友睡，你要检讨管好自己男朋友再来这里管别人=）
你让我好同情，因为连自己的不尊重自己

给你做一个地球人你不要却要做火星人
那么就回去你的火星吧 -外星人
=）

你管我在我BLOG里说什么，
就算我说我其实是男的，来看的人可以当我放屁
你酱不爽做么？
还有，我到现在没有指明道姓讲是谁哦
你现在其实也可以当我放屁
不要生气啊！！！！！

我沉默不吵闹不是我默认，是我要给你机会发泄。
你应该忍得满辛苦了。
我懂我懂~~

我不会生气，更不会用粗俗的字眼来羞辱你
因为我不会INSULTING~
哈哈哈
但是可惜

你会！！！
保持安静因为我有用到脑
你的脑在那？
有在用吗?
HALLO?
不用就生锈的咯！

可悲~~~~~
来乖~~~SAYANG~~~

噢对！
谢谢你帮我冲人气=）
感激不尽

2009-11-26T21:17:00.000-08:00

突然听到一首这样的歌

不喜欢怀疑什麽
并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化慢慢不同
我不是生气只是心痛
最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变
但不能说你会这麽做是我的错
哭过就好了
伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸著割舍
爱是为了拥抱为了牵手不是为了争吵为了调头

哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩还是谢谢你让我长大了

哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤

要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

这是梁文音的歌

只是看到歌词我就会觉得痛

很累
昨晚5点才入睡
现在快闭眼睛了
怎么工作

懒得理你

2009-11-26T07:11:00.000-08:00

最近很勤劳BLOG，虽然日子过得其实满无聊
哈
原谅我，这里是我暂时打发时间的娱乐
会一直出现我工作发生的事情，因为这几天都重重复复
没有什么特别
只是今天很多照片拍，又VIDEO
原因两支蚂蚁在店里，ANTERNAL YOANNE都是 AN
早上一到店里就一直跟我嗮命昨天去QUATTRO又拿到LMF的帽子
是LMF丢过去给她的！*这个是重点

YOANNE
ANTERNAL

YA，show ing show ing
然后楼上该死不开MODEM，没有得上网，幸好我有带BROADBAND
FACEBOOK SIAOOZABOO~~~
没有FB会崩溃
客人喜欢凑热闹？老板一走开~
就突然爆多人，我们两个人四支手，客人按门铃又要去开门
我们就说为什么老板不要把按钮换成用脚踩的比较方便
明天要建议建议了

今晚ＯＴ到１０点多
回到家就上网到现在～４点了～还不睡，失眠了。ＫＬ时间都是那么不够用

我很多东西很想发表的其实
但是为了顾全大局，还是闭嘴为妙
想说就算我装可怜，作故事　难道他会配合我？　他会想要挽回还是那么后悔？
如果你是他，你会那么伟大吗？帮一个不值得的人骗全世界来损坏自己的名誉？别人我不懂
但我可以肯定，如果他觉得没错，绝对不会给自己挂上罪人的罪名的
有时做人不要太过爆正义感　如果你想为他说好话，还是替他感到不平　你可以发泄没关系
我不会删除我的ＣＢＯＸ的，有话想讲，就给讲个够吧
我不回应只是不想让别人火上加油　

言论自由
　虽然这是我的ＢＬＯＧ我可以决定

我尊重你，　
你懂什么是尊重吗？

不要说我不值得被尊重正当我没有鄙视你的人格　
你以为你什么？
也是地球人一个

Oh plezz!

2009-11-25T08:28:00.001-08:00

wanna blog for today
but im so lazy and sleepy.
MISS ANT!pergi quattro..but i missed..
LOL
seriously kinda touch de today wat she respond me.
i mean like i really not alone bah.
keep get scold by her i am sohai..never see a girl sohai as me..kolian ~after talked about him.is her mention 1st?
= ="
Aiksss..then feel im hungry so she said accom me go order food at mamak at downstair
NASI KANDAR restaurant nasi pattaya not nice =(
here no nice food lo weih..i just ate 1 or maximun 2 meal per day..
no money,no appettite
gonna use my money so smart now..because kinda poor d~
sleepy day for today
both of us boring till sleepy
she aso 3 am only asleep last9

Just now still dated chuck chuck keiii go shopping after her spm.
Awww..we 2 years dint meet up d~winkz winkzz
she gonna change her style and i wanna find a style suitable me too.
Headache!
cant wait to meet her~and all the babes` xoxo
Don wanna be sakai at kl pls!!!!
I wanna changed more more more..and pls
diet more!!!!
suddenly feel all kl girls so slim!
YOR~hard feeling la
just 1 month for me more pls!!!!!!!!

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and spammer at my cbox again
making fun ha?
LOL
lai lai lai...

kl got how tiny?are u joking?i mean are u mean kl area?or whole selangor?
why my secret related with KL?can u pls tell me why?
Something like i doing jenayah at this country yeah?
no 1 is feeling glad after broke up 1 pls,
even me,i still dint think im glad that i leave him finally?
so u just trying to making missunderstanding or turn the fire on to argue huh?

i adore ur courage to leave msg here=) hope its wont look stupid
faster tell ppl wat i did pls~
wanna knw wanna knw!CURIOUS ING!

最讽刺的 [ 一年快乐 ]

2009-11-24T10:04:00.001-08:00

第一天开始新的工作环境虽然没有什么陌生还是不习惯的感觉
也许同事也是朋友，老板人也很好
年轻就是那么FREE 没有约束一大堆
今天还蛮愉快的，晚餐老板请吃DOMINO PIZZA
同事是位很帅的女生，迟点就知道是谁=）

在家自拍很久没有这样了

我看起来很忧郁
憔悴

但起码还可以笑的出

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最后一起的夜晚
是句号

看到日期 11月25 号
这天其实应该要在一起庆祝
应该要开开心心两个人黏在一起都已很足够
但却这样平淡的说一句
讽刺的
一年快乐
一句现在不属于我们的一句祝福

我们从相识到相爱到最后伤害
如果问我后悔吗我会答没有必要后悔
这是自己做的选择自己要负责
爱情不能买保险风险要自己承受
如果可以预知幸福会最终跟什么人一起那样就不会有令人赞叹的爱情故事了吧
虽然愚昧的说了一句如果没有发生我们现在会一起庆祝吧
原来我原本设定好的计划跟早已想好说的话
但是今天我自己竟然完全想不起来了
我让自己看开了很多吗还是不在乎了
不要以为我在难过好吗？不要以为我还是放不下好吗？
不要以为我没用好吗？不要以为我真的那么脆弱好吗？

我只是是不愿意去恨不愿意埋怨

很想说一句

你可以不爱了别说你舍不得
这样很残忍

如果没有什么事，就让电话没有出现你的名字吧。
可能这样心会更坚定

PS：谢谢你们的关心，不管我认不认识你，你们认不认识我
我只想说谢谢
你们的安慰我会感激的，但不要拥有怨恨的成分
这个结局我们没有人是胜利者

我的CBOX要PEACEFUL~
好了，晚了。。
明天要继续工作
加油~！

我很好

2009-11-22T22:17:00.000-08:00

真的没有再哭泣看到你没有什么特别的反应
我让自己学会放弃让自己学会怎么更爱自己

我生气
是因为你自己没有好好珍惜我最后为你保留的一点尊严
我难过
是因为你还执著的为自己找那么多借口来换取别人的同情
我无言
是因为你现在所做的一切都只是为了禰補伤害我的过去

离开你知不知道勇气要多少你不会知道因为你知在乎自己难过又多少
到底知不知道我多努力只让别人看到我们的甜蜜不是你有多没有能力

爱情不需要这样去比较是我告诉自己爱得定义
你却屡次这样狠心摧毁我的心

不要说什么你可以为我做什么说我在你心里是多么无可代替
如果你连一点被人讽刺都无法抗拒无法容忍那么一点委屈

不要说你爱过我真的没有后悔说什么很对不起
如果你有曾想过珍惜我付出那些疼惜我为你流下的泪滴

到现在我还是说我不是可怜的也不要被可怜的
因为我是这样想的起码我最后分手还是带着尊严
我没有什么心虚心虚的人才会这样为自己解释

希望他可以明白要怎样才会让别人尊重
因为我真的很怕看到他朋友这样对我说
原来他是一个这样的人原来我能容忍是一个这样的一个人
然后他又跑来告诉我现在所有人都责怪他了
我要怎么回答那么可爱的问题
我只是做对的事，说真的话
没有要责怪谁对错谁对
爱情如果有分对错那就不要爱好了

遇到了一个不珍惜自己的人
是一种让自己更自爱的肥料
发生了被人狠心伤害的事
这些一种让心更坚强的肥料

我很好
是因为我现在学会了怎样都不可以忘记自己可以拥有幸福的权利

会有这样的一天的
我拥有最真心的依靠

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昨晚有一个很好的朋友陪我去买了新电话，我的SIMCARD也去DIGI CENTRE弄好了
大家如果有我联络号码的可以放心找我了
=）
让朋友家人担心了几天真的很内疚
昨晚他也到我去了LUNABAR 虽然他一直要我说发生事的经过一直提我失恋
但我却已一直说我很好一点也不想诉苦
最后回家的路上是我在开解他
因为他知道不需要安慰我不需要辅导我
因为比我可怜的人还更多我算什么
我都已经自我痊愈的很好
真的很感激我在这里有那么好的朋友
我其实很幸运

想起CHRISTINE 跟我说的
我不觉得还需要跟你讲什么你都知道要怎样做了
都说了，我在这里承受所有的事我会没事的
因为我要自己很好再想现在那样的告诉你们我很好不要担心我

明天开始工作了
今天就让自己开心的放纵一天吧
SABAH几个朋友来了一定要守承诺的陪她逛街
哈哈

需要赚钱很多东西要去买
加油吧
XOXO

361 THE ENDLESS.

2009-11-21T17:33:00.000-08:00

I dunno where i should i start to write..
And dunno should i express everything out or not?
Everyone is asking,everyone is curious.
Why is our end day on 21/11/2009 the 361 days we belong to each other?
I saw the notes at his facebook
The tittle is LOVE YOU and is he tagged me.

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Yesterday afternoon,i fetch you from LRT station, i was happy,we went to tropicana and we still can laugh together,smile and talk.holding your hand,and then we went to my college,intro u to my classmate.back to my house,let you rest and sleep.hugging you and kissed you.at night,we went to poppy.i though it was nice night.we drink dance together and hugging..evendore your dance quite funny but i happy to hug and dance with you but for small problem and some reason,we both bad mood for awhile.after club,i don't know what happen to us. Suddenly became so bad,we quarreled so badly.i also not understand why and how came like that.Until we both like sohai cried.I lost control untill wanna cut my hand and punch the floor many times. After that we still had a nice night and play somestuff..Before you went back ampang,we did it again and seem you are normal.I'm not expect that after you went back you made a decision.and cass told me that you don't want to continue anymore.i was shock and why before you went back you not going to tell me?.This thing can make me crazyI'm waiting for this 25 for our first year.Hope you calm down now and give me a chance.Love you.our pic memories in 361 days.the picture is uncountable.too many.just upload fews

You teach me how to love people
You teach me how to appreciated ppl
You teach me how to write love letter
You advise me about my future
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and photos of us..
And i should be touch rite? am i?
But i was shocked by my respond that i am blank.
Because i understand him more than everyone,
This is the way he express the guilty when everything its become a fact.
I doesnt blame him always wanna be the one innocent .
I really don mind to be the person who being blame by others.

如果你是爱我的你会让我快乐
如果我是爱你的我会让你自由
让你拥有你要的生活

如果我们是爱得痛苦的这不会有结果
我真的无所谓我不怕一个人我不怕寂寞更不害怕承受委屈
我只想好好的做原来的自己难道有错吗
我的原谅难道有这样不值钱吗？
为何要这样践踏为何要这样残忍

I just don wan lost the rules of myself , I just don wan to changed to another person that is not yoanne anymore.
Why u cant try to understand?
U said u bring me go clubbing because u loved me,But i told u i don like to club and i just wanna spend time with u even just stay at house.That's really enough for me because u is the only wat i need.
I don wanna go because i knew,u will drunk and i will saw the differences u by my real eyes that nite..That the most i don wanna to see.
U cant see me how uncomfortable am i step intro the clubs.I tried to told myself,be happy Yoanne =)
U told me,Babe,tonight u help me count how much i drink,i wanna see my limit to drunk.This is my 3rd cup for tonight!
Im stunt and tears gonna drop because lasttime u ever told me like this.
Babe,i will not drunk if u r beside me because i wanna take care of u,so i cant drunk.
But now u asked me to takecare of u when u r drunk.U already forget last sunday u promised me that u wanna protect me and take care me no matter where...
Once ur mind just wanna drink,u forget...everything..
And again,ur happiness is build on my sadness.
And i saw u take the chivas bottle keep finding friend and said 5 sec or trying to let urself drunk.
I sit on the sofa and i don even dare to see u,i know i see the faces of u will make me being emo,and i don wanna cry
Ur friend 1 by 1 keep asking me,why u seem dint drunk?
Or
Yoanne,Are u okay?
I replied,because i never get myself drunk at club and i cant,i pointing him and say:Are him really look like this during the day he club at kl?
His friend dint dare to replied me anything..
I keep quiet and my mind is so clear.And u said,Hey i just wanna chill my friend ma,why u wanna blaming me and cant understand?He is get tipsy that time i knew.
On the way back home i dint even talked and just pretend nothing..
U will know how hard feeling if one day that character of us is oppesite.

Reach home u r 1st thing to do is ran up to upstair toilet and vomit.
After that went to ur bed and sleep.
I answered a call and u started suspect me that i betrayed u
But actually i just wanna a talked to express my feeling..
U seem mad and asked me who is that fella?
and u say u wanna call that ppl ..I don let u to do that,because i tot u will respect me at least a little bit?
U said if i dint tell u who is that and u gonna broke my sim's card and throw it away.
I tot u wont do that,i tot u wont that cruel and lost rational to treated me like that..
And i still don say anything and said that u break then..
And u did,i saw my eyes that u break my sim cards and throw outside..
U do forget without my number and i will lost contact with all family and my friends,they will finding me panic if cant call in at all..
I crying and finding the sim card like crazy at outside like i lost something is valueble..
I told him my mom will worry me and my relative at kl will worry me..i must found the sim card,i must get back my number.
But u let me know the fact,found aso useless,its broken because i do broke it just now..

I wanna talk with christine alot,and until now,i dint tell anyone of my friend at kk,and my family
I dint show anyone of them because its enough to let them worry me,and i cant let them hard feeling..
The only can let me not alone contact is lost，its broken .

我不会忘记那晚你拿刀说你爱我到要割手腕证明
你用拳头捶地上来发泄
我并没有觉得这样做是对的
但那时我只能阻止你这样做，我没多说
但或许这是冲动，伤害自己更会让我看不起
因为是威胁着我
不要把这种事发生在爱情里这样的证明会让人觉得累

Im cold,just don wan to get chance to hurted more.
I scare will expect anything again..So i choose to being cold.
I go alone to find u,i back alone to leave you.
Reached home and viewed u facebook account as usual,after viewed my own profile
Saw u still asking ur fren when wanna club and don forget to ask u along.
And i knew,there's nth changing,u still u..i know is time to let u do wat u like..
And i don wanna stop u to having ur own life style that is not i wanted.
We two choose the different way since we leave kk.
Im not use to be advise ur future anymore..
Yes im not.

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I just wanna go interview my work at kl myself
and u tot im not going alone or im got another reason to going out without u.
U said say yoanne go ahead,actually u no need i care or u r ignore me.Go find another guy better ,such as ***** and im not a good guy that poor and bad.
I said u will regret and i will remember wat u told me.
Finally u really found out this is the missunderstanding and u told me u wanna test my respond that he send me those msg really make me hurted.
U wanna test my respond and u dunno how pissed off i am that actually u never trust on me.
U said u r caring me,but at the same time u r suspecting me.
Everyone can not understanding me that my situation here,but u cant.
Because we ever promised that must always trusting each other and care each other before u come here.
U don understand how i feel ashame on myself when i living at relative house and they will keep asking me when i started working or they all told i already found work then i came kl..
So most of the time i only stay inside room.Because i feel so shame when ppl got a high expect to me but i dint did well as they tot.

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I din blame or complain that u cant give my anything,or u cant help me anything over here.
Because the only on desire of me is we can being peaceful here and stop hurting.
But i forget one thing,something changed is cant get back with 100% as before.

In my mind i just save down our sweet memories,everything happy between us in these day
The sad and imprefect memories will be deleted.
You will set a place in my heart that is never get replace by others,but it just in heart we know.

I dunno how long time i need to recover..
Im trying harder..
Still will awake suddenly at midnite and sit on bed to cry
because the memories flash out without my permission.
And there's no u rub my tears out anymore
I dunno when can the tears stop dropping is for u..
Dunno when it become dry and no more tears inside
But at least,
I done this article with no crying...
I really dint...

一起躺着也各自有梦
不争吵不温柔不分手却不快乐
放弃努力在做什么
就怕会更难过只好装作我比你冷漠
你给的解释总是太晚
我已经疼痛的无法释然
听多了解释会让人失去信任
所以别指责我敏感
很受气谈恋爱苦涩的习惯
宝贝宝贝的叫着对方只是无法改变习惯
在别人眼中我们被羡慕甜蜜美满
才讽刺让心最酸
当爱情弄得的像折磨又想要挽留什么

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你连回答我朋友为什么我的SIM CARD会不见的勇气也没有
因为你惭愧吗
敢作要敢当这样才会得到最后的尊重知道吗

我突然真的好想家好想好想家。。。。

Day 5

2009-11-18T21:58:00.000-08:00

Suddenly found this photos at my hp,
its a self camwhore photo before photoshoot last 2 week ago at snips.
Its about bridal make up photoshooting.=)
1st time put on light colour make up,i guess pink+whiteeyes shadows on my eyelid.
i hope when i being real bridal on my wedding day just put on a light smokey is better.
I felt i not suitable with light colour 1?

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Okok,wanna write something about my life here..
Today already is the 5th day at here,so fast..
Im sorry i dint owez keep in touch with all my friends,or u guys scare disturbing my life?
Is ok la,in heart can feel each other aso enough d=)
Do interview for few saloon at sgw and ts area.
And doesnt really feel wanna working over there.
There's too stress...i scare i cannot handle
Im going work at pj/subang/bangsar area for temporary 1st i think..

Friday gonna meet him and he wanna accom me go for interview..
Seriously we do argue very serious yesterday about i go ts and sgw alone for interview
And i found that he very panic about my life at kl.
Or he just wanna protecting me don let me get in trouble?
Im sorry i doesnt let u feel confiedent that i can take care myself well. But give me time,i will show u that i can =)
Im lucky i think..
At least i m not alone here.

Yesterday after interview,i went cheras 'hong lok'night market
Mr Johnson bring me go,and thanks alot to him!
He is the kind man fetch me from klia,help me this and that and never request for any benefits!
Honestly,its my 1st time been there since i come kl that often.
Just owez miss the chance to come over..
Im excited u know,and i cant wait to keep eat everything nice at there as i can
Din eat well for 3 days,and i wanna let my tummy being satisfied !
What did i ate?
-Tou fu fa
-Luk Luk
-Xue hua
-Fried fish
-Chinese Kuih with vegetable
-Cheese tart
-Fried kuey teow

i swear this time i break my life record
But ofcoz all those food i not sweap all myself la..
Mr johnson got help some~HAHA

And another thing,night market stuff wan soo cheap mer?
OMG~those eyelashes.mask,cosmetic,access,shoes,etc
really feel like come here just will make myself get mad
i buy alot thing that so expensive at mall,and here the same thing the price that diff..
SOB

start walk at there around 9 something,we leave around 11.50~
And getting more crownded here.feel so dizzy and hard to breath ler
then he send me home
eyes gotta close while i on9 and finally
sleep infront laptop while half chatting
someone nudge me non stop but i dint feel anything.
Too tired.
Im sorry.

GHHH!!!

The brand new day!

2009-11-16T17:36:00.000-08:00

Its a little updated for my blog
Leaving home its been 3 days ago..
I mean the 1st time i need take care myself without my parents.
Im sorry being mommy girl suddenly because i really do miss my mom and dad now.

That night before i leave kk,
I wrote 3 letters,My mom,my dad,and my sister.
Dunno why feeling i do really long time dint talk with my parent with so touching words..
When i was young ,i will write letter to my dad when im sad,when he's mad about me,
or when i realy wanna express my feeling but don dare to say it out face 2 face.
But when i getting older,i feel i doesnt wanna express my feeling infront my parents or can say,it seem getting hard to express to them.
I knew my mom really don wished i leave here..
because since i say im going kl work,she's the one who keep advice and warning me,did u sure u wanna go there?
'u sure u can effort the life over there?u think u really can take care urself?'
Yes i know mommy,u loved me and u don wan me to being alone facing problem or i still like a baby tat in ur heart?
But im sorry mommy,i knew u r sad and how don willing i leave..
But u r girl is not a baby anymore,she wanna go for her life and create her career that without againts parents..
She wanna prove that she can being strong enough.
Because she's daughter both of u.
She wanna let both of u proud of her =)
Don worry me okay?
I wiill take care of myself here..

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Its sad for the last day i leave kk,i dint hang out and i choose at house.
Because i feeling nt well and not in the mood..
Christine,Ben and Fish come my house and they help me coloured my extension wig.
But i dint talked much,i doing my snips folio quiet and keep try to impress my sadness.
Because i doesnt feel wanna cry that night Its really poor me if i do cry like a kids.
3 of them dint talk much with me too,
i guess they know should't talk anything sad or touch to make me hard feeling at the last night? Cause they hope me being tough and go on the road i choosen.
So,they choose to being forgotten me going to leave without 10 hours more..
I open my Facebook,blog just keep saw the words they wrote about me and i started drop my tears..
Suddenly christine was pm me at facebook,and i knew she's sad.
Although we mayb just around 3 month dint meet others,but i guess its a long time to go for a person who need to wait..
She told me that the 6 frens of us cant do anything to me,they guilty~
2 of us dint meet me at the last day with a selfish reason..
But once i heard the reason they dint free to come meet me actually i dint feel hard feeling..
But christine do,she just cannot accept why.
Seriously,i dint blame anyone at all,because they got own reason to do wat they wanted.
.And i cant stop rite?
And i really rather and i do warning christine no need to send me go airport the next day.
Because i really don wanna cry,and its spoiled my make up i joke with her.
She said she don wan to go,because its like damn feeling bad if she stand at airport and looking my back view going to boarding and she need to stand outside there..
She felt that i leaved her..
So she willing dint see me that day..
Yes i can understand her feeling,just like lasttime i watching him walk into the entrance.
.And im the one who standing outside.. I can feel it.
Mayb me and her do really look strong and tough,but our heart really weak sometimes,
i scare when she need me to hang out when moody im not there to stand by can go fetch her,i worry she will let ppl hurted her again cause owez give the last chance but not latest.
Its too many to say...
Beside that,i knew still got another girls who owez support and care about me behind me.
Mayb she dint like to express her feeling to everyone,or she dunno how.
But i know she's kind as well,just abit emo and easy think negatively lasttime
I remember that day we knew each other and we chat with sms so much,i call u and talk with u..ask u to be more confiedent,hang out,go clubbing,come my hse overnite,go the camp frm my mom company,go pierce together..etc
Thanks bby,i apologize.
I do really make u feel alone and dint seem important at that time
because human owez hard to balance everything until too fair..
Mayb u olreadi dint feel wanna blame on me,but still,u r great~=)
Dont impress ur feelng that should let ppl undertstand u more..
ok?
always being happy and enjoy ur life..don make things regret k~
LOVE u wen2
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I dint sleep the whole nite long,i wonder why im tired,but my eyes once close i feel so hard to breath and nervous..
Im stress and worry.
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My dad aso taking flight to kl same day with me,
but he just transfer flight at klia then he go bangkok for out station.
He woke around 4am and his flight was 6am~He saw me at living room and

he touch my head and say take care ya daughter,any thing happened must let dad know,i will help u whenever u need me.okay?
He look so sad and but in his eyes i can see the love of him to me.
i open gate and say goodbye to him,ask him to take care while working too..
Just prepare myself around 7am and get out from hse around 9am~
Mom and my sibling all go breakfast together
My mom hug me when she come down from stair..i guess she read the letter.
she her eyes with tears..
LOL~my mom is cute enough
i just ask her u dare cry i don wan coi u..
my mom like a little girl suddenly~HAHA
and she keep asked me wat u wanna eat the most?
Hmm..i said watever la,i dint feel that hungry actually..
After breakfast then headed to airport,take some picture
and i dint return my head back when i boading.
My tears keep impress for whole morning finally drops~
Not that pity la,but just my 1st time ma..
KL is not strange for me,but i need to started everything again..
anyway,wish me luck yea.
and thanks for those msg who sent me that day.
Warm,Sweet and Touch Enough!
LOVE u guys.
and im so lucky to having u guys.
I appreciated!

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15/11/2009

2009-11-13T21:33:00.000-08:00

time 2.30am

i cant sleep
just let the sun show me is the day reached
i got too many to blog
but not now
wait me
stay tuned

彷徨

2009-11-13T08:51:00.000-08:00

昨晚到家发现喉咙有点不对劲
说话很吃力又好像会破音
以为只是因为唱歌唱太厉害所以才会引起声音暂时变质
怎么知道早上醒来，声音没有变好
反而好像更严重了

所以整天很懒惰说话
心情很不好
虽然今天是我很期待也很开心的日子
约好了一大班SNIPS的朋友来我家烤肉搞PARTY
结果我的失常真的有够SPOILED我的MOOD 我想他们也觉得很怪吧
真是不好意思，都是最后的聚会了还没有留下完美的句点

真的很DOWN
最近严重失眠几乎都早上4点睡，然后不到7点一定醒来然后又睡不着了
明明很累却又无法睡得很好
很无奈
现在的我真的很慌很担心
但没有选择

无法回头
一个人也要好好生活下去
毕竟这是我从前到现在的决定跟选择

明天很忙很多东西没完成
还是有遗憾的
到底该怎么办

硬

2009-11-09T10:25:00.001-08:00

Promise of my previous article that will most more..

The photoshoot from YvonneTeo
my best friend from secondary school.and she's talent =)

Actually the theme of this time photoshoot is really meaningful for me
Because i wore high heels,i got long hair,i make up,i look feminine
But i climb the storn,i walk the bump soil road,i stand under sun at noon for an hours

That is me.

Keep going on my way for my life no matter its hard or full of challenge
once i felt its right,i will not give up and resolute with my choice.

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我倔强因为不想当温室小花
风雨可侵袭干旱可摧毁
那么脆弱也短暂
宁可做一株野草
顽固的生命力根基扎实
就算除掉了又可以再生长

我忍耐因为我相信得到需要代价
但不要把我的忍耐践踏着
视我的付出理所当然

我沉默因为更可以分出真假对错
但不要以为我什么都不知道
视我的存在不以为然

我犯贱因为明知道会跌倒会痛
因为痛过才知道下次路要怎么走
视我忘了怎么跌又重复让我伤口跌伤

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我接受批评愿意改变
但不希望让别人决定我的选择
我自己会判断是非对错
人生攻击的人享受着伤了别人的那一刻
但同时要为自己默哀因为做了这些小人之为
也忘了同时会有大人不记小人过这句话
到最后得到的是雪耻
到底为了爽什么？
三姑六婆才喜欢制造是非比嘴贱
不要用粗俗的字眼承托自己的文化好吗

SIBUK nya!

2009-11-07T04:01:00.000-08:00

It seem i started kinda late too update my blog
Really busy with my life now..Its time to pack my things to move this coming sunday..

What i did for last week?
-with the 6 friends hanging out
-photoshoot for my babe yvonne
-clubbing at saturday nite
that is the main activity actually,and just like usual go snips,back home,sleep,tv,bla bla bla

Im so complicated for this month and i do really trying to forcing myself to forget about it
and think positively so i wont emo again.
Enjoy life, aren't?

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Photo from her.
Yvonne Teo
Im apologize that im not a good outdoor photoshoot model
Because im fat im fat im fat
yea,im on diet wor!
i will post more for the coming article

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This saturday nite just busy clubbing day
change 3 place and dance hard,im just cant miss chance to shake the calories and wanna shake off my fats for 5 kg more!!!

kenny,the hamster everyday tease me!
and force me to called him aso gor gor today.
I felt digusting because i never called ppl as jie2 or gor2 coz im the eldest 1 since i born.

adrian aka phoebe,my buddy !
loong,the caring dude and talktive

on the way to ice bar with my love christine

Her ofcoz!

ahh..sotong.i guess i was tipsy tat time
see my sweat and wet fringe!
LOL

back home around 4am.

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PS:
look at my CBOX
got a spammer name YOU
he/she :
Ur ex said tat u flirt with many guys...
only thing was good in BED..
YOU re absolutely a SLUT.

see that see that?
LFMAO

SENTENSE 1-my ex told u that i flirt with many guys?

ohh?i only got 1 EX before and he is 1 of our 6 friends 1 soul,u make me laugh coz
ur spam is been reject with the 1st sentense.LAME
(i flirt with uncle sometime because when they come saloon cut hair and wash hair i will talk with them,touch their hair,scalp.YOU know la,so close ler)REALLY MANY GUYS LO,EVEN KIDS,TEENAGERS AND OFCOZ UNCLE THAT CAN BE MY GRANPA le weih!

SENTENSE 2-only good in BED

Hmmp...You ah You..u mean i good in fu*k huh?
Well,if im good and praise by my partner i should be proud * evil laugh
I will be more SOB if im a DEAD FISH in bed!hahaha

SENTENSE 3-YOU ur absolutely a SLUT

excuse me,are u mention you or me?because u type ur NAME is YOU.
and ur sentense mention about 2 words by big capital letter
(YOU & SLUT)
YOU SLUT! LMAO
okok,stop joking~back to topic
Everyone of the MALE know about ME longer,sometimes they will told me about
Hey yoanne,U r outlook lie me. I tot u r girly ,but why u so MAN?especially when i working.HAA
Did u ever see MAN being SLUT?brainless!
show me show me!!!!

SHOUT~~~~~~~arhh..
pls,spammer if u wanna hurted me or trying to making trouble at my blog and my relationship with my friend?

PLS BE CREATIVE abit la weih.
see!because of ur silly make me waste my time to reply u so long here..
yer....!!!!!!! HAHAHA!
*evil laugh again*

6 Friends 1 Soul-UPDATED

2009-11-04T08:48:00.000-08:00

这篇我需要很久时间完成。
如果可以，可以好好读完吗？
谢=）

1-Christine
2-Ben
3-Wilson
4-Jacky
5-Chueng@fish
6-Me!

The 6 friends But 1 Soul

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I must start my article with 1 by 1 of all the characters 6 of us
The 1st one i choose Christine Law

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我想用中文因为这样我可以更明白的说出想要说的一切

她跟我长得完全是两个样的女生轮廓我们绝对没有相似点
身高体型也不像就连胖的地方也完全不一样哈哈

但是我们最像的是
很多人看我们第一眼的感觉都还好因为我们没有衣一副看起来很友善的嘴脸
也许讲话都串串的表情都是臭臭的感觉就是怕我们会吃掉的感觉
但这是我们的一种方式交朋友就是不会刻意虚伪因为我们都知道戴面具很累
所以我们可以很了解对方想法可以很一致

是她

每次只要我一通电话就可以

哭，她是那唯一抱着我
饿，她凌晨3点陪我去吃面
骂，当我受委屈的时候
陪，我没有了男朋友在身边的日子
教，我懂得很多人生会经历的事
听,我每次重重复复的话题
说，一些不是每个人都可以听的道理

我很幸运因为她为我做的一切
因为她从不会跟我计较些什么就是这样的不求回报
我知道她不会刻意说好听的话表现多伟大
所以我心里时时刻刻记住她做的一切

我这辈子不会成为她那些失望的朋友

我知道她真的会很痛
因为我知道一个真心付出的人
是不该被人滥用别人的心软而满足自己
如果可以我会成为那个保护着她不被其他朋友伤害的角色
不讲太多肉麻话，我们心也可以感受的到
真心

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The 2nd of US,BEN CHUNG
I dunno why choose to talk about him for the 2nd 1,
Mayb he just very got relate with Christine Law :P
Im not going to seperate too far He And She =)
Seriously,i dunno wanna use english to type about him or chinese?
Because the both language i think he aso ' half bottle water'.LOL
sorry to say that XD

Ok,i choose english better,mayb i wil mix some chinese later?

BEN CHUNG,the tallest friends in my life..Seriously,he got 190+?
And i knew about this huge boy around 1 year and 1 week i think.
Since the day i step intro Snips,this boy SPOT my sight..Just because the 1st respond of me
WALAO!how come got ppl so HUGE?
And this boy is so cute!with his very single eyelid small eyes
see

he bear me and fish!so strong XD!

If i dint wrong,he is the 1st ppl i dare to talk at snips?
He always let me felt he really no confiedent to himself
And dunno how 2 express his feeling to everyone?He dint talk much..Tat is BEN CHUNG
i knew before he coupled with Christine Law.
After 4 month i learn hair dressing at snips,I suggest ben that both of us need go find part time
for weekend because we r so free..
1stly,he don even dare to step intro those saloon for interview..I still remember i push him!
HAHA..Like that,he started getting more mature in his mind..
I think im the one who push him kinda more in his career..Because i knew this boy personality is
really kinda good with responbility and not arrogant..He would like to learn all the time..
And now,Ben Chung is not the shy and quiet at all..TEASE me very EXPERT!
Im happy to know him,a boy always bring fun to me..
Not really how to chill ppl when sad,but very true..
Thats why he is one of us!

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No-3 WILSON LAI

The 3rd friend,WILSON LAI
Both of us know most earlier,because during high school we 2 in the same school bus
Our house in the same park,but we dint talk at all..
After a year we met each other again at saloon,then he found out tat im that girl who always wan whole bus waited to come out so long 1..
HAHA~cause im the latest passanger ma..plus i really lated kinda often..
This is the 1st image of him to me..LOL
We r kinda unique relationship before that,mayb we like each other,but actually its not love.
So we choose to being back friend,So today we got the 6 friends.
He is mystery because dint talk much..But he's not tat type of quiet or shy boy..
Just wont being active before know longer..And u can always see smiling face owez hanging on his face..
And his voice laughing aso kinda ehh..special la,wilson style.HAHA
Although he got some missunderstanding btw all us,or we ever tot he is the boy always not serious with relation or friend?
But actually he doesnt mean that,Just dunno how to balance both side to the most fair..and he don like to express his feeling to everyone.Happy or Sad just hide inside heart..
So we don understand him well lasttime,so the missundestanding getting serious..
He need love,but also easy let love huted.
I do really hope u found ur mrs right,and hold ur hand tight and wont loose hand to leaving u alone again
Wilson,must love my heart only u will meet a girl who is fated with u appear k^^
We r sorry wilson,everything is past,don put in heart k.
=)

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thanks for u give 6 of us this sentenses~
6 FRIENDS 1 SOUL
THE MC BANG IN THE HOUSE!yooo..

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really not realy got take pic with him before..so few..
write until here,about him
wilson
mc bang

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turning the next one

4th FISH CHUENG

1st sight with this 2 photos,i sure u will got the feeling same with me.
Its cool!
Fish the name from june,since year ago or mayb 2 year ago?
Besides,we calling him as cheung cheung.Oopsss,i always wrong spelling his name as
'chueng chueng'
I know him since last year november too,i knew him and ben at the same time
and they two is the only i dare to talk with them at 1st.
Remember the 1st time i step intro snips,i heard somebody that told me fish wanna be the 1st of my fren at snips.that time i already got a good image of him
Because he do really look friendly and lovely in reality.
He is a unique boy,that i ever met in my life.
And aso the oni 1 i most worry abt him in 6 of us
coz he is the most soft heated,most kind,and aso the most hard 2 see him get mad 1
to be continue

我爱的他-渐渐消失

2009-11-02T18:58:00.000-08:00

他的镜框留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

叮当- 我爱他

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当初以为狠狠割下伤口会很痛会痛的自己倒下
但现在自己又何尝不是伤痕累累
昨晚看见那封信息，也许他觉得自己那样说我会很感动
看见那种虚伪的甜言蜜语存在着什么意义？
掩饰自己内心的愧疚吗
为什么他也明明知道却要装得过且过
难道不会累吗

如果我下了决定
是因为我真的清醒了
还有12天要走了
没有期待没有冲动
却满满的不舍

现在处境进退都不对
都做了决定还能怎样
只好硬着头皮走下去
我可以=)

The Halloween+Babe Sarah birthday

2009-10-31T23:54:00.000-07:00

Update later

无言

2009-10-31T12:53:00.000-07:00

我不开心你说我情绪化

难道我没有资格抱怨你难道真的不懂的关心吗
慰问没有安慰没有
我根本没有资格去指望要求关心的字眼

我彻底的安静

根本不想去争辨你对我的任何好与不好
因为习惯了

伤害了再赔上道歉
我真的不稀罕不想要

随便吧
反正你也是无言

我才不会装可怜
你习惯让别人同情那我做坏人吧

我不好。
可以了吗

Ordering.

2009-10-30T06:14:00.000-07:00

Super nudy lens order for this week
Anyone interested?

Honestly,
its really my flavourite lens

this link for more information
http://iamyoanne.blogspot.com/2009/09/super-nudy-grey-lens.html
http://iamyoanne.blogspot.com/2009/09/super-nudy-grey-lens.html
http://iamyoanne.blogspot.com/2009/09/super-nudy-grey-lens.html

Problems.

2009-10-29T03:23:00.000-07:00

My blog layout back to normal.
And the another problems,my post cant edit fonts.

The time to leave kk is so near near near..
i still got lot lot lot things to do.
omg...how can i finish all my work b4 i leave?

Mood so down =(

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Settled my probelms of my blog finally^^

Dint go snips today,many things to do..

renew ma ic
shopping with christine

tonight yumcha?
LOL~

Saturday@ICE BAR

2009-10-24T23:41:00.000-07:00

Ice bar again.

With my old sch mate=)

next week halloween party again@@@

phoebe,my primary bestie !
rarely to hang out together
=)
next week gonna hang out again yeah~=*

and myself

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after ice bar continue party with christine and some peeps
with the bottle left lasttime
and seriously
drunk
and
ZzZZZzzzzz

FUN but i not much to describe
somehow,the feeling for this few day so cold.
not much emotional from me.

still finding a nice blog skin to modify~
any one got the website for blog skin?
i need it badly= (

FISH CHUENG RETRO PARTY @ ICEBAR

2009-10-23T12:22:00.001-07:00

23/10/1981

the peeps meet at old town...

its me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING FISH!

from the left me,fish and christine
fish owez the cutie in our heart!!!

this photo totally awesome!haha~dint wrong~we dress with VERY retro

me,annie ah sou and christine

see all the boys!poser like an uncle
omg alan face!

with her again.HEHE~

and this is sam,our newbie snips student~
we wore so alike tonight!
high 5!!!!
hehehe

with all the man~from the right,dad,little bro,me the 2nd sister and big bro~

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ok get to normal~~~

nah~jacky the most!

me

chueng chueng fish

hehe~

sam and me !we kinda like sis and bro la!

jack acting evil

so sweet!

Suffer ING

2009-10-22T09:32:00.000-07:00

Really down..

STRESS
gotta crazy soon..

who can understand?

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Im trying to be good
I really being patient
I do become impressful

I always said i knew u r stress,but why no one to telling me
Yes i knew u too.

Or else im not human being ?
Someone told me,i am mature enough.
For EVERYTHING.
Did i?

I just don like to show ppl im weak.

but i think im hiding the well,
so even my parents dunno?
the one i loved don even know?

HEHE

I still acting now.

im not fine. =(

我要的不多
真的不多
一点都不敢要求
因为我不敢贪心

难道要这样施舍才甘心

我还要这样下去？

很白吃

Tick Tock

2009-10-18T00:45:00.000-07:00

Im stressful

But i love challenge
give me more guts!
I wanna face and solve all the problems

He said im mature,a 30 years old mind old women.
I been forced.
I do give myself too much pressure.
Remember Yoanne Ng
You just a 19 years old little girl.

Take it easy !

Its a blue sunday~

Waiting time pass fastly..

and suddenly read this

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2009年有可能离开以前生活的社团，或是熟悉的生活圈，你还是会认识新朋友
面对人际关系的挑战。2008年参加了很多活动，认识很多人，2009年你变了
对友情的态度比较保守了，结交朋友重质不重量。曾跟死党有过心节在今年又会浮现
对朋友反旧帐，关系出现裂痕，双方之间的友情像一面破掉的镜子，即使粘起来裂痕还是很明显。
今年你很任性，情绪会突然失去控制，爱耍脾气，拿家人，朋友当发泄情绪的垃圾桶
想法反反复复，改来改去。让周围的人觉得你有够麻烦，即使你说错话做错事，也会为了面子不肯承认，更嘴硬不想说对不起，跟别人相处，时常有语言上的误会，你认为别人是故意
在讽刺你，有种先入为主的观念，先有防范之心，大家很难跟你相处

关于爱情

有情人的你，两人存在没有解决的问题，随时会引爆，又沟通不良，你的想法会比较激烈
温柔的你今年对情人说话却失去耐性，还常说出不理智的气话。动不动拿分手当威胁
伤透了情人的心。情人若对你有要求，你会很想落跑。但两人却很难真正分手，分分合合会拖很久，让你烦心

看到最后很想说

他妈* 准！！！！
恐怖~~

Is my life.

2009-10-14T09:04:00.000-07:00

IM TIRED

so tired..................

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Im suffering of Menstrual pain
Damn!
I just attended snips for 2 hours then i leave,just because of period come too suddenly.
LOL
and i feeling weak,so i back home and rest early.

Kinda stress for the whole month,its too many thing to do..

-renew my ic
-get my driving lisience
-finish my exam for snips
-doing research and preparation for snips grand opening hair show
-searrching for hair show model

i cantbe weak!
stay strong
and hopefully body is enough healthy.cant be sickness at all!
Doing the theme for the hair show is about cyber look,metalic fantasy hair

need more idea.PLS

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Still around 28 days to go..
i still got wat else havent do yet?
My body parts buddies,when we gonna stick 2gether everyday again?
I miss u all..
Just chat with fish n wilson and feeling better..
thanks buddies!LOVE ya.

Erhm.
not really gonna type longer..
speechless.

before end up this post
i wanted to say
my mind is thinking somebody,i miss him
goodnite
muacks

接受吗

2009-10-12T17:43:00.000-07:00

今早的文章语气不好

*我抱歉

又在一次无法控制和压抑自己的情绪化
所以我选择删除

有很多人发简讯问候/安慰我
熟的不熟的朋友都有。谢谢你们的关心
我很感动，因为我被在乎

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也许到现在还是有点闷闷的
但，

我知道
你们这样说
是
可以理解的

对，
我有改变
因为，
我开始习惯了一个人承受很多事
我变得不再像以前那么毫无保留的表现原来的自己
因为社会不容许太直率的个性
因为人喜欢被认同喜欢听好听的话，看顺眼的事
我不会再不求回报的做一件事
因为你付出的全部别人不一定看在眼里
所以选择偶尔自私

人很可爱也可悲
喜欢新鲜感却也同时害怕接受改变
当习惯性的人事物有了变化
接受与不接受
其实在于的是接纳的时间
长或短

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适者生存
这句话，我认同

你要别人接受你

倒不如学会如何接受别人

因为

没有人类可以把爱同等份的分给所有的人
亲情爱情友情

怎么可能够均等？

社会往往逼着人改变
但我还是有我原本有的原则

我想说
我还是我，只是武装得你们以为我消失了。

DARN!

2009-10-10T23:34:00.000-07:00

A lazy sunday

I woke so late,around 1pm~is not a possible sleeping time for me.
Because i cant even sleep late than 9am.
But today i did.
Just because im too tired.
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Argue with my dad last nite
and quarrel with him yesterday again.
PLS!
i hate the feeling of frustrated,and why it comes to me again?
I though it been stoped?
but why not?
I would just shut up and dont wanna think anymore right nw.
Pls leave me alone then
and continue to let it complicated.
Everyone not understanding me im alright,but u r no different with others.
Im stress too,But who know?
Nobody.
Hell,why my blog wanna pop out emo again?

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Still got alot thing to blog
stay tuned.

Gain.

2009-10-07T10:47:00.000-07:00

Last tuesday,sing k with 2 babe's hanhan n miyako
Intro intro:KK BOX KARAMUNSING TUESDAY LADIES NITE.each ladies just RM4+
free 1 drinks and sing for 2 hours only.6pm on ward
Anyone wanna date me after i work at snips ?HEEE

Look at my eyes,my dark cycle and my face
look so tired. = =
recently i jz non stop to doing my job,and extra works that really make me no time to blogging
and type a long post,i just can upload photos and let the photos tell u guy the story
Im sorry peeps~muacks
And here is the photos for that nite

with babe miyako
getting mature babe

i still wearing uniform
and change my cloth

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and my babe hannah
i just can say,i lost control when i with her!hahaha

i trying use my tongue to lick my nose
but i failed~LOL
wink wink
WOW!
HEEE

ahhh,BREAD

and

playing with the cracker = =

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after sing k then go damai yumcha a while
12 something send miyako back home and end for tat day
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And last

wanna countdown day to leave kk

42 days more

why im going to leave kk?
Cause i need go a new place for my job,gain my experience,increase my knowledge and prove myself to be more tough
i hope i can !
gonna hang out non stop for this month d = =

BABE'S GATHERING

2009-10-06T09:37:00.000-07:00

LAST SATURDAY
THE BABE'S GATHERING WITH ALL MY LOVELY OLD SCHOOLMATES
really hard got chance to meet all of them at the same time
enjoy that nite with them.
love ya ! CHU

at upperstar b4 clubbing.
and me n hanhan keep playing the camera
and my mini camera necklace is attract me keep playing ~
nonsense

and the real camera

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lovely joey

sweetie pie carrie

and myself

this is by yvonne capture
not bad huh

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and around 11 something headed to firefly

me n babehan inside the car~while she driving

my babe SARAH!oh!
with the spec again

ignore the face pls
im playing with my mini camera again!LOL
lol~i been shocked?
opsss

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and the latest
BED
just for a while
firefly change house music
so we decided continue at the bed=)
dint drink alot that nite
because i need driving
reach home aroud 4am

the ladies

BUUSY DIZZY

2009-10-03T00:51:00.000-07:00

IM SO SORRY
i dint update my blog for almost 1 week
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since snips move to a new place
and everyone was getting more busy
many thing happened
and i gonna become more tough to facing all the probelms~
=)

AND

HAPPY MOON CAKE FESTIVAL

gonna gathering with old sch mates later on..
heee

updated later
stay tuned

new photo from hannah

the fake lashes is so HEAVY!